The Journey to You | D.L.

47.

It's negative.

Again.

My heart shattered into pieces again. Maybe I was only meant to have one baby. I mean all the things I used to do to my body... it's my fault it's so hard to conceive.

I started crying and turned around and buried my head into Nick's shoulder.

"It's okay baby. We will keep trying, it will happen eventually." Nick tried to reassure me but I was just too disappointed.

We walked to Beck's room and put him down to sleep. He didn't wake up so we went straight to our room. Nick laid on the bed and I laid with him crying into him until I fell asleep.

The next few days were quite the same cycle. I would go to work every couple days and some of the others Nick would. We would come home and play with Beckham and he was trying to say some more words.

Other than cruising he hasn't taken his first steps yet and I just prayed that I would be there when he did. I couldn't miss my only babies big milestones.

I woke up today and felt like I had a cold. I laid in bed with my eyes closed and just prayed it would go away, because tomorrow is the AMA's.

"Demi?" Nick asked and I figured he knew I was awake.

"Yeah?" I asked eyes still shut.

"What's wrong? Are you okay?" He asked concerned.

"Yeah I just feel a cold coming on. But let's go see if Beck is awake." I said getting out of bed.

We walked into Becks room and found him standing in his crib looking around and gnawing on the edge.

"Buddy stop eating your bed!" I said giggling as I went and grabbed him.

We walked downstairs and I went to look in our fridge for something to make. I was no cook but being a mom I learned some tips.

"Babe we need to go grocery shopping." I told him as he took Beck and put him in his high chair.

"Okay D. I was thinking..." he trailed off causing me to turn and look at him with curiosity. "You should take another test."

"I don't want to be let down again Nick." I told him turning back to the fridge.

"Babe it could have just not shown up. It's worth a shot, just go into it expecting a negative." He said and I considered his idea.

I mean I have been feeling sick this morning but it could just be a stomach bug. "Okay." I agreed.

I popped some bread in the toaster and got out some fruit. I chopped some up for Beck and put it on his tray, but threw the rest in the blender for smoothies.

We sat at the counter eating our toast and drinking our smoothies. After Nick offered to do the dishes while I took the test.

I walked to the bathroom and took a deep breath. After I took it I walked back out to the kitchen, setting it on the counter and covering it up.

I set a timer on my phone and helped Nick finish the dishes and after cleaned Beck up.

The timer went off and I took a deep breath, and walked over to it. I had Beck on my hip and Nick lifted the cloth.

I grabbed it to look closer and my jaw dropped. There were two lines. Two lines indicating that...

I'm pregnant.

I set it on the counter and put my hand over my mouth. Was this real? Is this reality?

"Babe! We're gonna have another baby! Becks gonna be a big brother!" Nick exclaimed looking down at me.

I looked up at him happy tears in my eyes and he leaned down and kissed me. "I'm pregnant!" I said.

"Yeah babe, you're pregnant!" He said.

It didn't feel real. My body created a little baby, and I wanted to do everything to protect them. We had been trying for a couple months but every negative test made me so disappointed.

But now... we are a family of 4.

I hugged Nick and he held me in his arms and we had smiles plastered on our faces.

"Beck! Guess what? Your gonna have a little brother or sister! Can you say baby?" I asked him excitedly.

"Bee-bee!" He said clapping his hands.

I knew he had absolutely no idea what it meant. But that small thing made my heart feel like it was glowing.

"Yeah baby! Nick... I'm pregnant." I said it not feeling real.

"I know Dems! We're gonna have another baby!" He said excitedly.

"I have to make a doctors appointment!" I told him and I pulled out my phone.

I dialed the number and put my phone on speaker on the counter. "Hello?" The voice on the other side said.

"Hello! I need to make an appointment with Dr. Montgomery." I said happily.

"Okay! What's the name of the patient?"

"Demetria Lovato. I've been a patient of hers before."

"Okay how does Saturday at 9:00 AM sound?" The other side asked.

"Sounds amazing! Thank you so much!" I ended the call and looked at Nick smiling.

We are gonna have a baby.