The Journey to You | D.L.

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Nick's POV:

The last week at home we have been adjusting. I am fully healed now so I can actually do stuff. Not being able to help my pregnant wife was one of the hardest parts about being injured.

Beck has had an attitude with Demi frequently resulting in lots of timeouts. She is so patient with him through all of it though.

Today Demi had a meeting with her team so I was planning on doing something special for her while she is gone. I'm gonna clean the whole house, make dinner, and set up a little movie night for the two of us after Beck goes to sleep.

This pregnancy has been a bit better for her. It's not as hard on her this time, and I am actually here with her. That was definitely one of the things I regret most.

Seeing her go through pregnancy this time, the good and the bad, makes me realize how much I actually missed with Beck. I'm just so grateful to be alive and here with my family.

Demi's POV:
I just got to the meeting with my team. I honestly have no idea what it's for.

I walked inside and found Scooter there to greet me. "Hey Demi, how have you been?" He asked as we hugged.

"I'm okay. You know there has been a lot going on recently." I said as we walked to the conference room.

We sat down and everyone started getting their papers ready. The noise sounded like someone threw a stack of papers and they scattered around the room.

"Okay so Demi, we wanted to talk to you about your career." Julia on of the people on my management team said.

"I figured." I said and laughed but realized I was the only one. "Wait is everything okay?" I ask

"Since you released Unbroken, you have basically done nothing when it comes to the industry. It's been over a year." Julia said.

I realized that they were right. "I have still been writing and recording so I haven't done absolutely nothing." I said feeling somewhat defensive. "And Scooter knows that my family will always come before my career."

"We know that. We were just thinking that we could start up some interviews. We would suggest a tour but obviously you had other plans." Jonathan, someone on my team said.

"Okay I'm gonna stop you there. I didn't plan for most of what has happened to happen. Yes I love Nick, and I was still working when I was pregnant with Beckham. I didn't choose to have an eating dinner or get raped by my father in law, and I definitely didn't choose to be used by my team. I chose to get pregnant again because my family makes me happy. And yes music does make me happy. It will always be a part of my life but I'm not going to put my life on hold just for a tour that will make you more money. I could retire now and be set for the rest of my life but I don't because I love making music." I say as I stood up in the middle of my speech but sat down again after finishing it.

Everyone was silent for a minute. I knew I had made my point but had also made everyone uncomfortable.

"Look, I would love to do some interviews and work on an EP or and Album. But I can't do much more than that. Unless it's acting again or hosting. But I can't do tour." I finished and just sat there waiting for someone to respond.

"Okay we will work something out. I'm so sorry if anyone made you upset at all Demi." Scooter said as he side eyed Jonathan.

We finished the meeting and I walked out to my car and checked my phone.

From Nick🥰: just got a reminder, you have therapy at 2:00. (:

Fuck I totally forgot. It was already 1:45 so I texted Nick back and quickly drove to my therapy session.

To Nick🥰: omg thank u baby I totally forgot! Ilysm💗

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"Demi! How have you been this last week?" My therapist Kelly asked me.

"I've been okay." I say just waiting to work through everything until she asks me questions.

"Have you had any hard points when it comes to recovery?" She asks.

"Once. Not drugs or cutting but with my ED. We always eat meals together. I don't know why but after Dinner my mind just took control. Beck hadn't been listening that day so I already felt like a bad mom so it was just telling me that I didn't deserve to eat and that I didn't deserve recovery." I confessed.

"Did you listen to your mind?" I thought back and answered honestly. "No. I ate less then normal but I still ate."

"Demi, how did doing that make you feel?" I played with my hands a little bit before answering. "I only felt guilty because the baby needs more nutrients and food."

"Did you talk to Nick about what happened and how you felt?" I was so embarrassed how could I? "No. I don't want to disappoint him. I already mess up sometimes and I don't want to upset him. That's why it's better if I try to keep things like this a secret so he isn't affected by my stupid mistakes."

"What do you mean things like this? You said only once?" She asked confused.

I started feeling super guilty and when that happens tears fall. "I lied. On Thursday I was not doing good. I felt like my emotions were all over the place and I couldn't get them under control. The only way I knew how was cutting." I confessed crying now because no one knew.

"How did it make you feel after?" I thought about the mixed emotions that I went through. "I felt better but guilty at the same time. And my emotions are all out of whack right now too."

"Demi I am going to tell you this as a friend not your therapist. You need to tell Nick." She said looking at me in the eyes.

"But I really don't want to. I can handle stuff on my own. I need to stop relying on him it's harmful." I said partially trying to convince myself.

"You need to talk to him. This is important and he won't be upset he just wants to help you." She explained and I knew she was right but I didn't care.