Guns and Roses

Back home

{Don't cry for the one who killed your smile}

I couldn't sleep at all, I kept thinking of what I could have done for her to act like that. I didn't mean to make her cry and make her feel like she has to please me right now, I could see she was overwhelmed cause her eyes were zoning out and I could see her breathing pick up as she looked into nothingness.

We have been best friends since I could remember and I had picked up things like that how she bites her lip every time she's concentrated on something, how she plays with her necklace whenever she's nervous or when her eyes light up when she is doing something she loves. 

I want her to be comfortable with me like she used to be but it seems like she's a different person now that we are married. I admit that she was tempting last light with that tiny dress on and all I wanted to do was just rip it with my teeth and just fuck her senselessly but I want her to be comfortable with me seeing her naked and I can tell she feels a little weird about the whole marriage thing.

I do too but I had a crush on her since we were 7 years old but I couldn't do anything about it cause I don't think she liked me back but now that we are married I feel like I'm on cloud nine. I promised myself to not sleep with other women now that we are married cause I hate the idea of cheating, I admit I slept with a lot of women but for her, I'd do anything to make her happy.

So when she asked me not to sleep with other women I promised myself not to go against my own word.

But today I decided to leave early so it will be better for her that I wasn't there so I would give her some space so I decided to go do some work here cause I have companies here too so I decided to check upon them.  

It was currently 6 at night and I headed home to surprise her with her favourite food, pizza with extra cheese and bought a tube of cookie dough ice cream for later. When I walked in I saw her in our pool out on the porch she was looking out to the sea with a drink in her hand. She looks lost in her thoughts so I decided to change into my swimwear and went into the pool next to her.

 She was leaning forward with her head resting on her hand, she didn't realise I was there which was a surprise since she's always aware of her surroundings, something must really be troubling her and I think it's because of me.