Why? [TommyInnit Angst]

Chapter 3: More Plans

I woke up in a cold sweat. I had another weird dream about Ed Sheeran forcing me to become ginger again. I should really stop listening to his music before sleeping.

I quickly pushed thoughts of whatever the fuck that was away, after all I have a stream to prepare for!

I hopped in the shower quickly rinsing off, then got dressed, once again getting caught staring at my reflection. I just couldn't understand what changed. I used to be so proud of myself, but now I couldn't help but to gag while looking in the mirror.

That's when the weight of agreeing to meet up hit me.

Not only would everyone be looking at me and judging my appearance, but how was I going to get away with not eating anything? There's no way Wilbur would let me skip snak time let alone not eat at all.

I started to panic. Shit!

I quickly grabbed my phone and shoved in my earbuds, putting on my "Wilbur Soot vibes" playlist to try and calm my anxiety attack.

After a few minutes I finally calmed down and started to get back into my streaming mindset.

I changed my stream title to "New Minecraft snapshot and Media share". Then typed a quick message in my offline chat before posting the link to Twitter and hitting the go live button.

I let the starting soon screen stay up while playing Loyjoy's 'Sex Sells'.

As the music faded a let out a small sigh before turning on my facecam and starting my intro.

I took a few minutes to hum and move my head to my animal crossing music before switching to full on TommyInnit mode. I took a few minutes to just talk to chat telling them a few stories about college and about the wierd dream I have been having. I then switched the music and did my classic intro. "Hi chat and welcome back to the stream!" I said enthusiastically then explained what I would be doing.

The stream had been going pretty well, I already had full iron armor and the media share wasn't as scuffed as I thought it would be. Although throughout the stream a few chat messages caught my attention.

EmmaWasTaken: Is it just me or has Tommy been looking like shit recently

BrieNotFound: Why is Tommy so annoying, I bet his friends can't stand him

Blake_is_funny: Tommy you're not funny you're just annoying. How do people actually enjoy this? 🙄

I don't understand why these affected me so much, I used to just laugh at them and find them genuinely funny but lately all the hate had been getting to me. What changed?

After hitting the one hour mark I was exhausted and decided to just end stream there.

I was going to go down stairs and beg my mom to watch a movie with me but checked my phone to see a text from Wilbur.

Wilby:
Hey I'm going to get on a call with Tubbo, Phil and Techno to tell them the meet up news. I'm setting up the call now if you want to join. :)

Fuck, the excitement I originally had for the meet up was officially dead. Now when I thought about it I just felt a giant pit in my stomach. But I couldn't pussy out now, besides what would Tubbo think?

I needed to stop being such a pussy so against all of my instincts I got onto the call and immediately regretted it.

"Ugh who invited the child." Technoblade asked rolling his eyes while Wilbur and Phill left.

I laughed along reassuring myself it was a joke. The I noticed that Tubbo wasn't there.

"Hey where's Tubbo?" I asked.