Why? [TommyInnit Angst]

Chapter 15: Up

After explaining the plan to Purpled, I decided to just text it in the general chat of the meetup discord.

It had been a while since I'd talked to Tubbo so I decided to head to Karl's room.

I decided to knock before coming in. The second my knuckles made contact with the door, I regretted it.

I couldn't place the reason, I just knew I had to get out of there as soon as possible.

I quickly turned around and booked it for my room, where I crashed on my bed sobbing.

God Tommy, why do you have to be such a cry baby? No wonder they call you a child.

I felt myself get up and walk into the bathroom, as if it was on autopilot.

I searched through the draws looking for something sharp. After a few minutes of searching I gave up.

Fuck. Karl must have taken everything.

Oh god, what if Tubbo told Karl what I did.

My breathing started to quicken.

Great.

I was about to start trying to calm myself down, but something stopped me.

I wanted to have a panic attack. Why, though?

I let the attack play out, laying in a ball on the bathroom floor.

I couldn't explain why, but it felt nice. For once I didn't feel numb. It gave me the same satisfaction as cutting did.

I jumped as I suddenly heard knocking on the door.

I quickly pulled my sleeves down and jumped into my bed, pretending to be asleep.

I listened as it opened and someone came in shaking me roughly.

"Tommy, I know you're not asleep, get up." It was Wilbur.

I gave up the act, sitting up.

"What do you want bitch." I snapped, annoyed. I really wanted to be alone right now.

"Dreams starting stream, get ready." Wilbur said as he rolled his eyes and turned around to leave.

I sighed, pushing myself out of bed.

"Tommy." Wilbur turned around to look at me.

"What." I stopped dead in my tracks.

What if Tubbo didn't tell Karl but told Wilbur. What if he told everyone.

He was lost deep in thought. He looked me up and down as if he was trying to piece something together.

I watched horrified as his eyes widened as if he had just connected all the dots.

"Nothing, forget it." Wilbur bit his lip, obviously holding back whatever he was going to say, then left, closing the door behind him.

Fuck. He definitely knows.

Time skip: Right after stream

"Oh my god that was awesome!" Tubbo shouted, as Dream hit the end stream button.

"We definitely broke twitter!" Sapnap shouted, as he held up his phone, showing us the twitter trending page.

After a few more minutes of celebrating in Dream's room we decided to move to the living room.

"Hey Tommy! Come hang out with me and Karl!" Tubbo grabbed my arm, to pull me in their direction. I flinched and quickly pulled away.

"Tubbo you're hurting me." I complained. He quickly let go, looking regretful.

"Sorry I forgot." he mumbled as he started to turn away.

Aw now I feel bad.

"It's fine, we're even now." I laughed, trying to save the mood.

Tubbo turned back around smiling in disbelief. "Really?"

"Yeah, let's go!" I held out my hand. He looked at it hesitantly then grabbed it, pulling me towards the couch, where Karl was sitting with Ranboo and George.

"Hi Tommy!" George greeted me as Tubbo and I sat down.

After a few minutes of small talk we decided to settle down and watch Up.

Everything was finally starting to go in the right direction!

The next thing I knew, I was being shaken awake.

"Tommy! Tommy!" Wilbur was hovering over me.

I immediately jumped off the couch. As I slowly took in my surroundings, I noticed that Wilbur was sobbing, and we were the only ones in the living room.

"What's going on?" I asked, trying not to panic.

The worst scenarios started to play in my mind.

"We have to go!" Wilbur shouted, pulling me out the door.

That's when I saw it.

Surely not!

A/N: Sorry for the rushed chapter. The next one will definitely make up for it!