Sincerely, Mine (Dreamnotfound)

I Miss You

"What? Just because of a stupid rumor?" George looked hurt but he wanted to be angrier.

Clay still didn't look at George. He didn't want to do this right now. He was still in high school and he didn't want to ruin his reputation. He knew it hurt George and it hurt him too, but he felt like he had to do it.

George stared at Clay with frustration before leaving his car, slamming the door shut. He rushed into the house with his head held low and practically ran upstairs to his bedroom.

All he felt like doing was crying. He just lost the most important person in his life because of rumors. Maybe Clay wasn't worth staying in his life then.

Tears started running on George's face. He didn't know what to do. He didn't want to speak to Clay but at the same time he wanted to be in Clay's arms.

Clay felt really stupid. He couldn't believe he just did that, over something so childish. He knew George didn't want to speak to him, and honestly Clay wanted time to think about things.

He knew he was wrong. He debated on turning the car around and going back to George. But he couldn't do that. Not only did George probably hate him now, but he didn't know if he wanted George back.

Well, Clay knew he wanted him back. But maybe not just yet.

Clay started tearing up as he drove to the abandoned house.

He's been mowing the yard every now and then. It looks so much better, and he always came here to think about George.

He thought about silly comments George made during the day, or whenever him and George had their first kiss in that very house.

But now all he felt was regret and anger. He mainly felt anger with himself at this point. So what was a rational thing to do whenever he was this angry?

He took out the baseball bat from the backseat of his car and headed towards the house. He set up a speaker and played one of his playlists, and started to destroy things.

Whatever he could find-windows, cabinets, parts of the walls.

He continuously beat a wall with his bat until there was a big hole, which hopefully Clay would end up fixing one day.

No. Clay can't think of that right now.

Why should he stay here? Maybe he should go to college, he lost George as a best friend and a boyfriend. And he wasn't getting him back.

And plus, how was he supposed to be able to go in public with George? He didn't want to feel humiliated or feel like he was different, but it's just how he's always felt. He hates whenever people look at him differently and he didn't want that.

George wasn't even angry. He was depressed.

He loved Clay; just like Clay loved him. He needed Clay.

Without him, George hasn't been able to sleep. And whenever he tried to sleep, he would always wake up about twenty minutes later and start crying even more.

George hasn't spoken to anyone. His mother thought about sending him to therapy again. He would barely eat or come out of his room, which made his mother worry profusely.

George hasn't even been to school. He didn't care anymore.

Clay acted like nothing happened at school.

The rumors started to fade since George wasn't even there. His friends would ask him if he knew George was but Clay would just shrug.

Clay genuinely cared but he couldn't reach out to George.