Intersex (Completed)

London (Lisa POV)

"I'm sorry but I couldn't longer continue our relationship"

Jennie's words keep playing in my head along the way I'm driving back home. I still couldn't believe it. I'm still shocked. It so easy for her to end our relationship. At some point, I hope this was just a mere dream but its not. I couldn't avoid it, cause it really happened. Never expect for it too end so quick. It actually took quite some time for me to process everything. My mind felt like paralyzing. But the moment I get alone in my bed, I wake up from my sense. Slowly I'm accepting my fate. Jennie dump me. That whats happened. Tears started to fall on my cheeks and it keep on falling. If only she know how much I love and trust her right now. All of sudden my confidence just drastically drop. I thought she's the one who's going to change my fate. But I was wrong. Without any warn, I ended being thrown away.

"Mom. I think I'm not fit in this place. I want to go home" weakly I called my mother. I try to compose myself. My life begin to feel empty again. Suddenly I felt like I want to leave this place. I desperately want to runaway from all of this. For the first time I felt like I'm being knocked down so bad. I felt betrayed. I still could endure with the unfair treatment that my family gave me, but this one, it felt almost unbearable. I spend hours silently crying in my bedroom feeling like losing a hope. I was panicking. I don't exactly know how to cure my emotion. Its too painful that I feel tortured. Its really hard. Soon I started to pack all of my stuff hoping to go home soon. I can't longer stay here. Too many memories between me and jennie. And her last words keep stabbing me inside. Its abusing me.

Thankfully my mother was fast enough arranging my flight. The next day I'm leaving my home to go to the airport. I'm ready to depart. Sadly, my heart still bleeding even after I left everything behind. I'm currently sitting in the airplane watching the cloud outside of the window. The view kinda help me calm a little. But my heart still torn. I wish I could make it vanished. Will it be gone?

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I spend a year trap in my family's mansion again. And I'm back being a loner. I learnt I couldn't change my fate. Maybe its true. I will be alone for the rest of my life. I thought I'm gonna stuck in here, eventually my mother decided to send me to London to further my studies. She think it safer if I'm outside of the country. Appearantly she like the idea of me being away. And yet again I just follow her words. 2 years I'm studying in london and it actually feels nice. I enjoyed studying here. No one seems bothered by my existance which makes me feel more comfortable. I adapted to this place really quick.

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Its 2pm as I spend my time in the library doing my assignment. Its my favourite place in the university. Cause its quiet and give me a space of privacy. While I was writting an essay on my fullscape paper, something just bothering me. I saw some sort of shadow just froze in the corner of my eyes, like few steps away from where I'm sitting. Out of curiousity I started to check it. My heart just thumping so hard the moment I saw a girl that used to shake my world. She already have her eyes on me looking stunned.

As much as I want to avoid her, I ended sitting next to her in the university park bench. "How are you?" her soft voice breaking the silence. I'm actually hesitating. Should I talk to her. "I'm okey" came out of my mouth. I only glance at her once. "So you're studying here?" she asked again. For a while I was thinking, I shouldn't be soft and leniet. I decided to keep my mouth shut. "I'm here for vacation with rosè and halsey, halsey's boyfriend actually studying here. Maybe you know?" she continue talking. Somehow it felt nice hearing her talk. And I shouldn't feel this way. So I started to interupt the conversation. "Jennie I'm sorry I gotta go, I have class" hastily I begin to stand up while grabbing my sling bag on the bench. I give her a subtle smile before I walk away. But then, her voice came in, halting me from moving "Lisa! can I see you again?" she sounds like out of breath so I turned my body around. She was standing still near to the bench like few steps away from me.

Soon I begin to talk. "I learnt something, I shouldn't have let anyone interfering my life. Cause I realised no one will stick with me until the end" I told trying to sounds calm. I don't have any idea that my words could hurt her. I saw her tears rolling on her cheeks right after I utter my points. It makes me feel bad actually. I'm afraid I couldn't control myself. So rushly I walk away leaving her behind.

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It's weekend and I just finished doing a grocery shopping nearby to where I live. Today I'm craving for Thai foods so I was planning to make one. While I was heading back to my place. I saw jennie sitting infront of my door. I was shocked. She looks pale and all trembling. Its worrying me. How long she has been waiting here? Didn't she aware that its winter season. She probably spying on me again. Cause that's what she did before.

"Jennie what are you doing here? you should go home" I asked. Without realising I was actually being concerned. "I know, I just want to see you. Can I atleast have a cup of coffee? I'm cold" her voice sounds shaky. Honestly I don't want to associate with her anymore. But I can't be insensitive and heartless. She's literally dying waiting for my arrival. So at the end I let her in.