Impossible - James Potter x Reader

Chapter 9

The Astronomy tower was my safe place, especially back in my time, every time Harry and I had a fight, because of one of his mindless, impulsive actions, I would go hear at night. The mysterious stars always gave me a feeling of home, of being accepted no matter your shape. Stars are good listeners, and often they were the only people, you could tell your deepest and darkest of secrets. In my fifth year Sirius, had died. Sirius had always told me, that I reminded him of an old friend, which I always had denied, but all made sense now. Sirius hadn't only been a father figure to Harry but also to me, so when he died, I was in desperate need of love, but Harry had pushed me away, saying I didn't understand. Harry had his Leo attitude, that had often caused to clash with my (your zodiac sign) attitude, but I knew it was hard for him to open up, because he never had anyone to open up to.

I sit down resting my back on the wall. It was cold, but I didn't care, I needed time to think. Suddenly I heard the door open. I look up and see Regulus entering.

"Oh, sorry, I didn't know anyone was here", he mumbles turning around to leave, but stop him, "No, wait it's ok".

"Are you sure?", he asks, and I nod. He smiles at me before sitting down on the opposite side of the wall, just like I did.

"What brings you here?", I ask the younger boy.

"I come here a lot when I need time to think", he replies, "And you?".

"Same, the Astronomy tower, is the prettiest place in Hogwarts", I reply.

He smiles as we sit in a comfortable silence, looking at the stars.

"What are you thinking about?", the younger Black asks.

"There is a boy I like, and we kissed", I reply.

"That's good, isn't it?", Regulus asks me confused.

"We can't be together, it's not fair for him", I reply vaguely.

"Why not?", Black asks me curiously.

I needed to tell someone my secret to feel save, and somehow, I trusted the boy. He didn't look like he meant any harm.

"Can I tell you a secret? You have to promise me to tell no one, until you die", I ask him.

"I promise, I wont live long, if you don't tell me anyways", he jokes.

"I am not from here", I tell him.

"Where are you from then, a different planet", he says laughing at his own joke.

"No, I mean I am from a different time. I am from October 1996. I got here by accident and now I am waiting for dumbledore to find a way to bring me back", I explain.

"What- how", Regulus stutters.

"My boyfriend and I were in the Room of Requirement when I touched a peculiar vase, and that's how I landed here", I answer.

"Now I get your dilemma. Who is the boy may I ask? Let me guess, James Potter", Regulus says answering his own question. I confirm his assumption with a nod.

A long uncomfortable silence spread between us.

"You know, thats the part where you should give me the smartest advice in the history of advises", I joke.

"Tell him", he tells me.

"What?", I ask not sure what to say.

"He should decide if he is ready for that commitment", the young Black advises me.

"The whole point of my question, was, that I can't do that", I reply.

"It is your decision, but keeping a secrete, or ignoring your feelings never ends well", Regulus warns.

"I'll think about it, I tell him drifting off, thinking, when I suddenly realise, I was a bad friend if I don't asks him what his problems are

"So, what did you need to think about?", I ask.

"Nothing", the Black avoids my question.

"Come on, I would be a horrible friend, if I didn't help you too", I push him.

"It's just, Sirius ran away last year and it just hasn't been the same since then. He promised me he would never leave and now he is gone and doesn't care about me at all. My family are very strict pureblood and ever since Sirius left, they put all the pressure on me. They have been punishing me more often", the boy explains a tear running down his cheek.

I am surprised. Of course, I knew Sirius' parents were strict, he had told me a lot about them, but seeing Regulus, helpless, alone, and scared, made me realise how cruel they were and what punishments was he talking about? I pull the boy into a hug. He hesitates at first, but then gives in, softly crying into my shoulder.

"You know, as long as I am here you can always come to me?", I tell him.

"Thank you for being my big sister and friend", he whispers, which makes me smile. A big sister. But my smile soon drops, I will have t leave and leave Regulus here, all alone, coming to the wrong side, dying trying to escape the dark Lord.

We sit there for a while embracing each other, being each others comfort.

"After a while I ask, What kind of punishments?", I ask.

"Depending on their Mood, if they were kind they'd hit me with their hand, but sometimes they used belts, or blood quills".

"Why don't you run away? I am sure James would take care of you", I ask the boy.

"I am not like Sirius, I am not brave, I don't hate my parents, I love them with my whole hear and I always was the kinder obeying son. The hat had hesitated and wanted to put me into Hufflepuff, but begged him t put me into Slytherin, he shrugs, and I nod. Not everyone is able to just leave their family, no matter how cruel they are".

"I should go to bed", Regulus says, standing up," Good night".

"Good night and don't worry everything is going to be ok", I tell the boy.

As the door closes behind him, I realise. Too many people bonded with me in this time, to many people liked me and I had to leave them all behind at one point.

~We can not become, what we want by remaining what we are.

-Max Depree

A/N: I hope you liked that we are Bonding with Regulus now and their Siblin relashionship. We are not at the romantic stage yet but we are close. Next chapter, next week, I am sorry for only uploading twice a week, but in smmerbreak it might be easier. Anyways, I gotta watch the new Loki Episode, bye!