𝗈𝖻𝗌𝖾𝗌𝗌𝖾𝖽; 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗈 [✓]

10; diary

it was morning and time to go to school. i took a shower and dressed myself and went downstairs. my mom was busy w her phone and in front of her was jongseob who, well.. woke up so early. i greeted them both and sat next to him. he handed me a apple and a bag. i frowned at the bag and opened it to see chips, candies and soft drinks in it.
"you bought this?"
"no, dad did. he came yesterday"
"i met him yesterday at a store"
"yn, did u know his girlfriend has a older son who lives w her husband?"
"oh rlly? i didnt know mom"
"yes, he's your age i think"
i shook my head and took a bite of the apple.
"where are u going today yn? after school?"
"uhm.. wanna go to the mall w me?"
"oh yes yes"
"good, meet me after school okay?"
"yes ma'am"

i look over to my phone when i heard it vibrating. it was a notification i got from a app. it was my fav app years ago. it was like a diary for me. yk those apps where you can write your daily life in, where u even can lock it w fingerprint or faceprint or pincode.. yea that kind of app.

it sended me a memory. a story i wrote two years ago. i look around and decided to read what i wrote two years ago.

diary-

this day sucked. some dude called choi theo started following me everywhere and we- we even kissed!
he told me we had sex and
i lost my virginity to a total stranger i met one or two days ago
and thats not all
he has it all on video!
he told me that he'll upload it if i dont obey it
im not a toy!
im not a object!
who does he think he is?!
im pretty scared and i rlly dont know what to do
but the fact that he's blackmailing me is so disgusting!
but
i lost my vcard
god i lost my vcard!
i hope i die
i lost it to a psychopath

i felt a tear coming down. this is today, i mean this happened two years ago. i totally forgot theo raped me. he had sex w me when i wasnt even sober. and how can i forgot that he posted a pic of us kissing. all the bad memories started to come up. he hacked my phone and had control of my social life.

but i dont care abt that anymore. i want it all in the past. i know for a fact that i like theo now. i like him. i dont care if he's a stalker, a freak or psychopath.. i just dont care. i like theo and thats enough. i dont care if he touched me without permission.

"yn!"
"hey rapper"
"yk i am sis"
we both started laughing and left my school. we started walking when jongseob suddenly asked me.
"do u think mom and dad r ever gonna get back together?"
"hmm.. we both know mom is in love w dad"
"but i dont get dad yk.. why did he cheat on her?"
"i dont know. come lets go in"
we both went into the mall, exploring every store in the mall. after jongseob bought his own ps5, he treated me some ice cream. it was a pretty fun day. we played games and laughed a lot. we called it a day and went home. mom was already in her pj's. when she saw us, she started crying and hugged us both.

"mom u okay?"
"oh, remember when we and ur dad used to wear matching pj's? i miss those times"
"mom, its gonna be okay"
"yes mom go upstairs, go watch some tv"
"upstairs? jongseob, upstairs?!"
"mom dont yell at him! go to bed. ur tired"
"no, im not tired"
"stop crying. the newest imitation episode has aired today"
"oh rlly? oh yes, i love that boy, jeong yunho. im a diaaamoonndd! goodnight lovies"
my mom ran up the stairs and went to her room and slammed the door shut.
"im a what?"
"diaaamooonndddd"
"is that a song?"
"sparkling jongseob, sparkling.."
"what- whatever. goodnight yn"

i was on my bed, looking at the ceiling when an idea popped in my head.

theo choi

hey you wanna go to the movies?

when?

uhm
friday?

oh ok sure
i have to go
goodnight

goodnight theo

do you think that i can confess to him? i mean, he's not gonna reject me right? i mean then why would he even stalked me in the first place? wasnt it because he was obsessed w me?

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end of this chapter