Naked Fall [BxB]

Kabanata 40

Kabanata 40

Rage

Fall. I might stumble but I want to make sure that I'm with him to this fall. Gusto ko siyang samahan. Gusto ko siyang ipaglaban. Gusto kong mahulog kasama siya sa lugar na ibang iba sa mundong pinaniniwalaan nating perpekto.

I want his caress. I want his kisses. I want his love that this perfect world we are in cannot give.

The day I decided to let myself stood on that cliff he hangs me on. I have already surmised that I might fall. But then, I hold on to survive because I don't want to lose the world we are both living into.

But the moment my heart skips its beat, I lose my balance. I fall. I fall for him even I know that it will both inflict us, damage us, ruin the things we are both working on in life.

And I don't think I will regret it. Because the time he makes me feel that he's my shelter and the warrior that will guard me, I recognize that falling on him was the best feeling I will always want to happen. 

I kissed him back in the same hunger. Our lips collide like they were eating their prey. It was craving, it was euphoric.

I pushed him on the wall as I held his jaw, gripping it. His hands were on my nape pulling me hard as he kissed me thoroughly. Our body was in the flame of love that I can feel by every move of his lips, that it was passionate. It was burning me with his rough caress at the back of me.

We are both panting and catching our own breath. Idinikit ko ang aking noo sa kaniyang noo habang habol namin ang aming mga hininga. Nananatiling nakahawak ako sa kaniyang panga habang ang isang kamay niya ay mahigpit na nakahapit sa aking batok. His other hand was on my back, pulling me more like were crashing bodies wasn't enough.

Mariing nakapikit ang aking mga mata nang marinig ko siyang magsalita.

"I love you Mi Arcus at hindi ako magsasawang sabihin sa'yo iyon." He muttered huskily.

Ang kamay niyang mahigpit na nakahawak sa aking batok ay gumapang patungo sa aking pisngi. He caressed my cheeks as he lifted my soft glares on him.

I licked my lips as my sight met his alluring weak stares that glints in the glee of hope.

That day, I can't get myself moved on. I cannot sink in my head that we are now back again. That we are having it secretly again. That we are now continuing the sin we are both partaking.

It's wrong. A taboo. A mistake and a sin. Incest. A made of evil that loving the same sex and relative blood will give unpleasant discouragement of disappointments and contempt in people like us.

But we are also human. We are also living. We can also feel. We can still felt love and deserved to be loved. At 'yon ang isang bagay na hindi ko kayang ipagdamot sa aking sarili.

I want to love him without any despite and regardless. I let myself got into him because I unconditionally accept what I am...if what is him and if what we both are.

Nang araw na iyon ay maghapon akong nag-stay sa kanila. We watched movies and rest together in his bed. He prepared us a snack when we both get up.

His parents were abroad at gano'n din ang kaniyang mga kapatid. Siya lang mag-isa sa kanila kaya kampante kaming walang makakaalam na magkasama kami buong maghapon. Even their maids weren't there.

Hinatid niya rin ako ng gabing iyon at sa amin na rin siya nag-dinner.

"Kuya Kaizer dito ka matutulog?" Russco asked him.