Naked Fall [BxB]

Kabanata 42

Kabanata 42

Delude

Without him, I can say that I wouldn't grow this way. He's the sprinkler and the sunlight that gave me strength to live on.

Kaizer and I were still dependent on each other. We can't be apart because of the situation that we have to face. Turning back to our family doesn't mean that we run away from it. It's our responsibility and requisite to face the cruelty and adhesive belief of reality.

I accept it already the day I admit my feelings for him. The day I said that I'm slowly falling for him. I realized that people won't ever get to understand it. That the string attached in the both of us should be cut off because it isn't right. It's a taboo that will never be acknowledged.

It was wrong. It was forbidden. It was a sin...our love for each other is evil. And I still see this as a mistake. But even my mind was on its rational thoughts I still couldn't get to do the best for ourselves. Because my heart clouded the vision of truth. My heart invaded the reality that I might leave and avoid him in the first place.

It's really between your mind and heart. And I chose to let my heart guide me to the path I am walking into. To the way with him without the uncertainty of fate that this thing would last.

Kaizer went out to buy us food for breakfast. Gusto niya pa akong isama pero napagdesisyonan kong manatili na lamang dito sa bahay.

Nanatili ako sa likuran ng bahay kung saan naroon ang malawak na bermudagrass at overlooking spot of Taal lake. I was sitting at the rattan chair that is placed near the veranda. Nakatuon lang ang aking paningin sa kulay asul na kalangitan at sa kapaligirang pinapakalma ang aking pakiramdam.

I shut my eyes as I tried to remove the difficulty in my exhales. Kaizer brings me here to walk away from the meantime because our cousins we're now known the truth. And I'm so sure that they are now tracing our paths to come in here.

I slowly opened my eyes. Marco's words to me last night are still creeping into my ears. Kelsy's peril on me at the resort was also bugging me. Their phrases are like a threat in our state. It was perilous and I know that they have their own ways just to tear us apart.

And I'm afraid that it was our family. My Mom and Dad...my uncle and aunties.

I was about to stand from my seat when I heard footsteps behind me. Mabilis akong tumayo at hinarap kung si Kaizer na ba 'yon. And when I saw who it was my eyes widened. I gulped.

My eyes roamed to the people who just came in. Kelsey, Zach, Ate Meaghan, Marcos, and... Ate Anastasia. They were all staring at me gravelly as my brows meet halfway.

They really make their ways to find us. And they didn't fail.

"Hi," Ate Anastasia's voice sent shivers on me when she spoke.

I felt my skin get chills as she now started to walk near my way. Sila Kelsy naman na may seryoso at matalim na mga tingin sa akin.

Hindi ako nakagalaw sa aking kinatatayuan nang himinto siya sa aking harapan. At nang ang kamay ni Ate Anastasia ay dumapo sa aking balikat at saka ako marahang hinalikan sa pisngi, I gritted my teeth.

At nang lumayo sa akin si Ate Anastasia at nakangiti pa rin akong hinaharap ngayon ay hindi ko maiwasang magbaba ng tingin. I know why she's here. But what is I cannot understand is that how they knew that we are here.

"Let's sort this out, Neil." Then she muttered in a very stoic voice. Extremely different from her softened tone earlier.

"Ate Anastasia-" hindi ko natapos ang aking sasabihin nang ang kaniyang palad ay mabilis akong pinatahimik sa isang malakas na sampal.