Naked Fall [BxB]

Kabanata 15

Kabanata 15

Surprise

Tahimik at wala ni isang nagsalita sa amin habang pinipindot niya ang tamang palapag. Malayo ako sa kaniya at mukhang natauhan na ngayon sa mga pinaggagagawa ko kanina.

It was long. He hugged me tight and I slipped out from his embrace when my mind reminds me that it was wrong. Hugging him was a mistake. It's like a line that I just crossed illegally. We are not meant to bound each other. That's the point of avoiding him.

And what I did earlier was deliberately wrong. I don't want to tolerate myself being affected by my emotions and by these freaking feelings that I can't even recognize.

There's a demon inside my stomach that I feel towards him. And I should not be confused and affected by how he feels. I know what to do and I can't just get lost. I have the sanity and I'm on it.

Pumasok kami sa loob ng kuwarto ko nang wala pa rin ni isang nagtangkang magsalita. He keeps on checking me every time I looked at him.

Mabilis naman akong nag-iiwas ng tingin kapag nahuhuli niya ako. His eyes were still aloof. The distant glare isn't bearable anymore. And I feel tense every time I look at it.

I lay on my bed and he did not. He walked towards the near table and removed his button-down shirt. I looked away when I saw his hand removing his belt.

What a view.

My room was a bit dark, pero may naaaninag pa rin naman ako.

"Sa sofa na ako matutulog," he then said without gazing at me.

I gasped. He thinks that something is between now that he needs to keep his distance the whole night. Pero wala namang dapat na mangyari. Or he's just distancing himself from me? Because he has a girlfriend and he's loyal. Well, that seems great.

"Ikaw ang bahala. But you can sleep here. My bed is spacious." I spatted then I felt something inside my stomach again.

Fuck. Ano ba 'tong demonyong nararamdaman ko?

Naramdaman ko namang nahiga na siya sa kama nang marinig ko ang mahina niyang buntong-hininga. Mas lalong nagwala ang sistema ko nang pinili niyang mahiga sa aking tabi.

Kaya tumagilid ako at tinalikuran ang gawi niya. I shut my eyes and pretended that I'm asleep. Because the demon wildly moves inside me. I hardly bit my lower lip.

Isang mahinang buntong-hiningang muli ang narinig ko mula sa kaniya. The distance between the two of us was great because my bed is big. But I can still hear his sigh.

"You're confusing me. I told you to stop playing around but it looks like I'm the one you're playing with right now."

I open my eyes and slowly breathe when I heard him uttered behind me. Nananatili akong nakatalikod sa kaniya.

"Neil, turn around and look at me in the eyes. Alam kong gising ka pa." his husky voice command. Then I felt him smoothly move his body near me.

At bago pa siya tuluyang makalapit sa aking tabi ay tumalikod na ako paharap sa kaniya. My brows were shot up and I can't look at him straight in the eye.

Wala pang kahit na sino ang nakagawa nito sa akin. Only him. I never felt intimidated and scared of staring at someone. This feeling was new to me. And I don't think I could feel it the same way with others.

I used to be intimidating and not this way. Hindi ako ang unang nag-iiwas nang tingin dahil una palang ay walang gugustuhing titigan ang aking mga mata at kung meron man ay hindi rin nila matatagalan dahil lagi silang naiilang.