A Court of Shorts and Storys

PRIDE! - Confusion

It is pride month! And this weekend you are getting four pride themed headcanons, two to day, and two tomorrow! 

Disclamer: I am not a part of the LGBTQ+ community, which makes me very nervous about posting these headcanons. I usually do not like to write things I can not relate to. But I chose to challenge myself to write these.

 I have tried to write them well and with respect. But I notice that my lack of knowledge and personal experiences hinders me in my writing. So they are a bit shorter than what I usually write. Hope you like them anyways!

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Confusion

This one is inspired by Grey's anatomy season 5 episode 6. Linked above. Translated to how Mor discovered her sexuality.

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It was a warm summer night, and Mor was out drinking in Velaris, this place still made her speechless. This beautiful place far from the darkness and horror of her childhood and teenage years. This place was just beautiful, and secure. And Mor loved it. She had been there for less than 4 years, 4 years of being third in command to her cousin and High Lord. She stoped by the newly opened restaurant by the Sidra. Rita's, the female that was the owner was standing outside the door, seeing the nights guests out and wishing them a good night.

"We just closed." the female said and looked to Mor.

"I know, I was just passing by." Mor siad back, smiling at her. She was cute, rounded cheeks, her hair in a messy bun, her body dressed in brown linen pants and a matching top.

"I have seen you around." The female continued. "Rita, the owner." She pulled fouth her hand.

"Mor." She took the hand, shaking it and with that a strong friendship was started.

Almost two years later, they all was at Ritas, Rhys, Azriel, Cassian, Armen. Drinking, partying. The restaurant had become a favorite place for all of them. This night Rita joined them, siting at the table, listening in on the stories that was shared. Mor had gotten more to drink then she usually did, and she was looking at Rita, Time and time again Mor had fund herself looking at her, taking in her body and curves. Her hair, her eyes...

Someone grabbed her hand and dragged up to the dance floor, moving to the drums rhythm. Mor joined in, rolling her hips and head. Rita was the body at her side, and Mor moved closer. Drawn to her in a way she never had been to anyone before. Mor took Rita's wrist, feeling her heartbeat under the dark skin. Rita moved and Mor followed, the two of them disappearing into the back rooms. Mor wasn't even sure what she was doing, but it felt... It felt good.

After she layed on her back smiling, laughing, trying to figure things out. This... This was right, and at the same time it was almost like the time with Cassian...

"That was amazing!" Rita exclaimed, taking a deep breath. "Truly amazing."

"Yes..." Mor said and moved to get up.

"You... You are like glasses." Mor turned around and raised her brows.

"What? I am blinding you?" She said, still smiling. Still processing. Not understanding.

"No... When I was young, I had trouble with headaches, specially after days in school, so my parents took me to a healer. And he said that I needed glasses." Rita sat up, her smile growing bigger and bigger. "I didn't understand why, but then... When we was walking home, I screamed."

"Why?" Mor was still lost.

"The green masses on the trees, it was leaves. I could see the individual leaves on the trees." Rita had tears falling down her cheeks. "I have been with males all my life, and it have never felt right, but you... You are like glasses, you make me see the leaves!"

Mor didn't feal like that, she just felt like she had landed in murky waters, for all she once had known was gone. No glasses, just the murky waters.

"Mor?" Rita asked, noticing her lack of response. "You don't feal like that?"

"I... I am not sure..." Mor said back. "I... I need time..." She left. Leaving her friend in the backroom. Mor needed to fell the difference, needed to understand what she had experienced with Rita just moments earlier.

Walking back on the dancefloor, she grabbed the first horny male by the collar and kissed him, all just to explore what she was fealing, to try to get to clearer waters. The male moved on her, grabbing her ass and brests. Mor let him, all to just know...

"Mor!" Azriel moved in the crowd, scaring the male away. "Mor, where did you go?"

"I danced." She said back, taking in Azriel. His beauty, his wants. And she knew that she never could move closer to him, his rage his desier scared her.

"Yea yea... We are leaving, are you coming? Where is Rita?" He asked.

"She needed to take care of her restaurant..." Mor lied, hoping Az would leave it alone. "I am coming."

"Good." They left the restaurant, and Mor looked back, not sure what she just had experience and how she could move on from it.

Weeks passed before Mor could walked back to the restaurant, and see Rita. She was standing in the main hall, preparing the tables for dinner. Mor stood still in the doorframe, just looking. She notice the glasses Rita had hanging from a string around her neck.

"We are just about to open." She said and turned to face Mor. "oh... It is you."

"I..." Mor started not sure what to say. "I am sorry for just leaving."

"You company payed for the drinks and food that night, it was a hefty sum." Rita commented and turned to the tables.

"That was not what I meant." Mor took a step towards her. "I have never experienced something like that before, and I was confused."

"You can skip the lie and tell me you didn't feal the same." Rita snaped.

"But I did feal the same, just like I felt with males I felt with you." Mor tried to explain. "Rita, you talked about seeing clearly for the first time, for me it was like my understanding of the world tipped to the side and became blurry."

"So you like Males and Females?"

"I guess... I am nor sure..."

"Come by next tuesday, I have fund a grupp here in Velaris that can help you." Rita turned to face her. "There are more out there, hiding in fear after the last High Lord punished some of them for coming out. A community that support each other and help others to find acceptance."

"I will... Rita... I liked it, what we did. Even if I at the moment if confused, I hope we still can be friends."

"Always Mor, Always."  

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I am not even sure Glasses are a thing for High Fae, but for this one, let's say it is! 

I am defenetly seeing Mor as a Bisexual, until something else is stated. 

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