𝐒𝐚𝐟𝐞 𝐏𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞 | 𝖣𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗆 𝗌𝗆𝗉 𝗑 𝖿𝖾𝗆!𝗈𝖼

Plans

Avery's pov:

I was sitting on my bed in my room while Something Super Sweet by Rory Webley blasted from my earphones into my ear.

I hummed the song happily....... this song could never fail to do so.

I could feel the cool breeze and warm sunlight on my face as I was sitting next to my window. My mind was cleared of thoughts and relaxed too. I knew that this moment wouldn't last long so I enjoyed it while it lasted.

It was currently 1:00 pm on a Saturday afternoon. I had already ate my "lunch" by which I mean leftover spaghetti that I got from school the other day and water, the only thing in the house.

My mom rarely bought food, not like I'm eating anyway but I'm still trying.

She always says she does not have enough money, yet every once in a while I see her walking in with a new piece of clothing, bags, shoes, and lots of other stuff as well.

The only thing keeping me alive are the leftovers from school, which last me a few days. But right now I couldn't really bother about those stuff.

As my eyelids started to close, my mom abruptly barged into my room, the door making a loud bang, saying :"Get up and get dressed now. We are going to the mall" in a sort of impatient voice.

I muttered a small "ok mom" and did as she said. But I still wandered in my mind for what reason we were going there.

Oh, I needed to get more clothes. I had been begging her for weeks for it seeing as the clothes I had since I was 10 were getting small. (They are 12 now by the way)

I quickly got dressed into a pair of leggings and a oversized t-shirt and put my phone in my pocket.

Once I was done, I quickly rushed down the stairs and out of the house to my mom's Honda. I sat in the backseat and without saying a word, my mom started our journey to the mall.

Throughout the whole journey not a word was exchanged between me and my mom. The only sound that filled the car was the faint sound of the song that played on the radio. I never dared speak to my mom unless she started the conversation. If I ever said the first word she will always find a way to insult me, even over the stupidest things one can think of.

I never knew why my mom hated me so much since I was little. I can never remember what I did that caused such hatred. Maybe it was the pressure that got put on her when dad died. The pressure that had got put on her when she realized she had to raise me on her own.

My dad was a very kind person. He always cared for me and my mom and everyone around us. He was truly one of the sweetest souls I met. He would work hard to make sure all three of us were well taken care of. While doing that, he also never forgot to spend time with us.

Unfortunately, when I was 7 he got into a car accident. The doctors had attempted to save him but he didn't make it. 

The next 5 years for me were living hell.

Every time I tried to talk to my mom or ask her something she would lash out on me. I hated it a lot. I wanted to go somewhere else but there was actually no other place to go than this hell hole.

As I just thought of more things to pass by time I suddenly remembered something that I've been longing to do but never found the right time for it.

It was coming out to my mom. I was pansexual and she was homophobic. She hated the thought of same gender relationships. And she also hated the thought of using pronouns different than she/her and he/him.

How did I know this?

I had asked her before about her thoughts of the LGBTQ+ community. She said that she hated it and that it was a sin.

And I had also asked her what would she do if somebody asked her to use different pronouns than the normal ones while talking about that topic. She said that it was weird and won't agree to use different ones.

As I sat there lost in my thoughts, I didn't know that we were getting closer and closer to our destination.

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Authors note: Hello everybody, thank you so much if you are reading this book. I am so sorry if its short and really bad cause its my first book. And if you have any recommendations on how to improve it pls message me. Anyways, thank you for reading!