Ilimitado Amor

Rumours

That day, after hearing the rumours, Anushka, Siddharth and I- all three sat gloomily. Anushka felt like crying. My eyes were sore and Siddharth was red in anger.

There was absolutely nothing, we could do about it. The problem lies in the mentality and, unless the mentality is changed, there is no scope for improvement.

It was Anushka's last year. She wanted to create positive memories as much as possible, but the way the school was running (the school's students), it felt as if every single person- from students to teachers', everyone was against her trying to relieve her tensions. The point which created rage was that she was the only girl who was trolled or talking to boys. Other girls too talked to boys, but they were never trolled. The question was 'Why only Anushka?'

She already was worried about many things. Day-by-day, her tension increased. She needed support to fight this. She needed her trust-worthy friends by her side. At this point of time, Anushka, Siddharth and I all played a vital role in each other's lives.

One evening, during our prep time, Anushka and Sid were sitting in the academic block. I was busy with some work. Anushka shared her feelings, 'why she was upset', 'why she was sad'. She spilled out each and everything to Sid. She sat with him the whole prep time, holding his hand. She cried out her sorrows. It was a crucial moment, because even he wanted her to not cry, but he thought, 'let her cry. She'll feel better.' And ho! There was a smile on her face after the prep, and that smile was not fake. That day, Sid proved that he truly loved Anushka and would do anything to keep her happy.

I also was happy; after all I could see someone truly caring for my sister, and she too was comfortable, in fact very comfortable and content with Siddharth solving all her problems and keeping her happy. After all, that's what I desire- Anushka's happiness. That's what mattered the most.

So, Siddharth and Anushka were in love. No one knew how it happened, but it happened. It was their little secret, and they liked to keep it that way. Let's say, it was their secret love story. I have seen both of them staring at each other every time they are nearby. I can clearly see the red blush on their faces. Well to be honest, they both are made for each other or I should say 'MAD' for each other.

Sid loved Anushka, with all his heart. He would do anything for her. I could see it in Anushka's eyes, even she will never leave him. Her love for Sid is clearly visible in her eyes. I wish they would stay together till they die. They will love each other for eternity (says my heart).

On a Sunday, I was sitting with Sid, having a casual talk. Out of the blue, I asked him, "You love Anushka. Don't you?" He turned and very bluntly said "Yes, why wouldn't I? Who can't love those beautiful eyes? I just feel like I should sit and look, and look, and just look. And her smile! The first time I saw her smile, I was mesmerised. That was love at first sight and I have loved her since then. I fall for her every time she smiles. So the conclusion being, "Yes, I love her and always will...""

I was relieved. Finally, there was someone whom I could trust upon loving Anushka. Sid promised that he would never let a tear of gloominess flow from her eyes. Never from his side and if someone else does it- he/she wouldn't be spared. 'Wow! How lucky Anushka is.', I felt. I too wanted to be the same type of boy for my girl. I can do it, but she has to permit me for that...

For any relationship to be successful, trust, friendship, bond and most important love is required. I could see all of this between Sid and Anushka. I wished the same between Annandi and me. I had imagined a lot of things between us.

'How our bond would be?'; 'Will we be a happy couple?' All these questions hovered in my head. They would be answered with time. For now, I had to develop trust within Annandi that I will always look after her, promise her happiness throught this life.

I dreamt about loving her unconditionally. I never imagined a life, with someone before meeting Annandi and cannot imagine a life without her after knowing her. I was sort of crazy for her. This craziness was harmless.

I was seeing the whole day, Sid an Anushka didn't talk at all. I just saw them gaping at each other. They talk only half-an-hour, before prep and I could see them both happy with that. Like the patience in them was extraordinary. I then asked Sid, "How do you manage to do it?" And the answer that he gave made me cry... "I wake up in the morning and the first thing I think about is her. All I think is that what memories a new day will bring to our life? What can I do to make her smile? When I bathe, I dream about her smile, eyes, her everything. Then as I reach in the mess that is the time where I first see her everyday and that is the place where I fell in love with her. Then our first eye-contact is when I stand to mind the lines and she crosses me every day. It is the place where every day we smile at each other. Then the whole day, while sitting in the class, I dream about her. Well now you must have known why am I called 'The Daydreamer'! Then comes milk break. That moment is also very precious as we then meet and talk a little and I give her a chocolate and she blushes. Then I roam around school to get a glimpse of her. Then at 2 P.M, when school bell rings, my heart starts to race as it was time when we met again. And those 3 hours between milk-break and lunch seems like 3 years. En-route mess we talk a bit we laugh. Then after our lunch, we look at each other and smile, that is our 'Goodbye! See you in prep...' Then while my afternoon nap I think about 'what would she love to do?' 'What should I do so she stays happy all the time?' Then as soon as the bell rings at 4 P.M, I rush towards the auditorium. And she is always there before me, waiting. As I reach, she looks at me and smiles which melts my heart. We sit there and talk till 5:30, after which we see each other and disperse saying without saying, "I'll be waiting for you at the prep..." At 6 o'clock we meet, and talk till 6:30, which is the best duration of the day. We talk, laugh, share thoughts, listen and solve each other's problems. We find our love spot. Then after prep, we walk back to mess for dinner. After the meal, we again look at each other, while leaving and by just looking into each other's eyes we share our 'I love you and 'good nights!' In the night, I sleep by thinking about her and dream about us. So basically, the whole day she is with me some-times physically but always with me in my heart and this is what love is. No actually, She is love! She is my love! I love her" I kept thinking about this, 'How deep their love is...' and just felt mesmerised.

Even I had similar emotions, if not equal for Annandi. Even I wanted to do all this for her. Bu I was only possible if I and Annandi would talk. Without a conversation, both would never be able to know and convince each other with our thoughts. Annandi wasn't ready to listen to me. Every time I talked about love, she acted immature, as if my love was a joke. Of course 9th -10th was indeed a very young class, for love and relation, but she has already faced this.

Of course, the most beautiful girl of the school, such a beauty acts that she is immature for love! And the irony is that, she has been in a relationship in 8th class! I was angry and upset- not for she did not love me, but for not getting an appropriate reason, 'Why did she find me annoying?'