Ilimitado Amor

Reasons

There is always a reason for everything. For not loving me, for ignoring me, for avoiding my messages- there was a cause behind it. Was it Shubhangi? Was it my own actions? Where did things go wrong? I completely failed to understand what did she want?

Amidst these came The Annual Function of our school. I was going to take part in anchoring. I did that pretty well last year too and wanted to do it again. I was pretty good at it (or I should say good only at anchoring nothing else). I went for the selections. My English teacher, Mr.Pratyush was the head selector (who became my nightmare).

I did pretty well in the speaking part. I had to read a stanza of my textbook. He however wasn't in a mood to select me. I was really pissed at the fact that he didn't take me for anchoring, and the reason just blew up my mind.

"You aren't good in Maths and Science, so we can't take you." What the heck did they want from me? To calculate the distance between each word of a paragraph and estimate the total pages required to print it?

I was infuriated. I was returning back to hostel. I had expelled my emotions on a pointed wall. I kept on punching it and then gave a loud roar. I banged my room's gate and left the hostel. I was pissed. While going, I met Anushka and Priya, her friend. Anushka saw my face was red. Eyes were filled with tears and rage. My nerves were bulging out. She asked me, "Kyaa hua Dhruv?"

I narrated the whole story to her. My knuckles wee swollen, on the verge of bleeding. She got my hand dressed and scolded me.

She said, "Dhruv agli baar kiya toh main tujhse kabhi baat nahi karungi." (Dhruv, next time you do that, I will never talk to you.) I apologised her. Wow! Such caring people I have around me. Truly, it feels so nice to have such caring people around us. When you have such legit-legends as your friends, lack of love is not felt. The aura is always like "Savage-Level Maxed Out"... Such people are hard to find and impossible to forget.

I felt so privileged. I was happy upon choosing the apt set of friends. One immediately knows whether his choice was right or not, and I feel that my choice of being with Anushka, Siddharth, Rohit and Priya was the best choice, I could ever make.

Just the person missing from the group was Annandi. How could I bring her in the group? Annandi was with those, who never liked our group. All this really pissed me off. Annandi was moving away and away from me. It was like an inversely proportional statement- The more I stayed with Anushka and others, I would go far from Annandi. It was a very difficult phase for me. Loving a person who does not give a shit about me or stay with the best possible group in the school.

There were two roads, diverged in a black wood, and I stood there on its beginning. It was going to pave a new way of life for me. I decided to come to a conclusion,

"It isn't worth to keep on going behind a person who does not give a shit about me"

So I decided to move on. That was the best option for both- me and her. I acted as if I was least affected by her rejection. I always 'pretended' to be elated in front of her. I wanted her to realise, that I wasn't desperate for her love. Annandi wasn't much affected by this. The person on fire was none other than- Shubhangi. It was she who dew Annandi's attention to the fact that 'How happy I was even without her.'

Whenever I crossed them along with Rohit, Anushka or Sid, Shubhangi poked Annandi and gestured her to look at me and that burn on Annandi's face!!!

That sight of jealousy on their face, got me to realise that, my decision of staying with my friend circle was the apt for me.

You must be thinking, it was evil to do that, but it wasn't intentional. W never crossed them purposely, to make them feel jealous. All of us legitly, stayed together, for most of the time. Slowly Annandi was drifting away and away from me and that was the best- for her                             -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------