Ilimitado Amor

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So blessed, to have such friends and such a life. Earlier- So lonely, Now- So engaged. It is truly amazing, how I struggled to get friends to getting the best set of friends, one could ever have. Of course, there were issues between all of us, but all of us rose above the taunts, united together and reached the pinnacle of our friendship...

We had embarked on a journey of eternal friendship. Our bond was truly limitless. It really showed Annandi that, "I do have friends, to give me love. Without you, I wouldn't succumb to loneliness." My only fault was, loving her. And she made me realize that, I was stupid, to fall for her beauty. She did not make a personal choice. She asked her best-friends, for whether she should love me or not. I mean, it's her life. There will be a stage, when she won't have them by her side. What is she going to do then? Will she call up Shubhangi ask, "Shubhangi, I am in a problem. A boy has proposed me. Shall I say 'Yes' or 'No'?"

I mean really, it was so dumb of her to ask, Shubhangi to love me or not. Had it been her personal decision, I would have appreciated and accepted it. But she asked, someone else, for her personal choice. That thing hurt me the most. When I got acquainted with this hard-fact, it pricked my heart.

The day, I got to know this, I cried a lot. I cried so hard, that it almost choked me. Still, I didn't curse her after all it was her personal choice (though it wasn't personal). I wondered how anyone could let another person, make choices for him/her that to on aspects like love.

Anyways what happened is all past. I am trying to get over it ( though I have been failing miserably ). I kept my self contend, with Sonia's love. I wanted to meet her. I missed her so much. I also wanted to give the pendant, which I had ordered. I was, literally counting days, to just rush home, meet Sonia, hug her tight and give the pendant to her.

Amidst all these, we also started preparing for our exams. It is the most crucial year for all of us (Rohit, Priya, Anushka and Me). It was now, that we decided our careers, and work towards them. It was time, to depart our focus, from all he jovial time we spent together, to the biggest challenge of our life – Board Examinations.

People mostly exaggerate about bard exams- "'It is very tough'; ' The paper is really long'; blah-blah"... I feel if we have prepared well, no exam is tough. And, talking of the length, the paper is first solved by experts. They see, if they can finish the pare within two-hours, then only the students would be able to solve it in three- hours.

So, as far as I feel, board exams are normal exams, with a bit more importance, than any normal school-exam. It is just the perception of the student and how well, he/she has prepared for the exams...

Engrossed in studies, making flow-charts, time-tables etc. we made sure that we score-well (fairly) in the major exam. We had distributed our time, to make sure we study and score well. Boards were just 20 days away.

Of course, there was no load to be taken, but at the same time, we had to make sure, that we don't take things lightly. Annandi had her final exams, the very next week. She had started full-fledge studies. Just like every point was important for me in English, he same way, every mark mattered a lot to Annandi in Maths (She want to score full in Maths)

Every time, we (Annandi and me) crossed each other, there was an exchange of looks, which seemed to be a compound of love, Anger and guilt. I was in love with her. She was angry on me. And, we both had a guilt, of what we felt about each other.

I was thinking, 'How I wish I had never loved Annandi.' My life would have been easy-going, but twists are vital and necessary in life.

I had never expected such a phase in my life, where I would be in a dilemma of whether of whether continue loving Annandi or focus on my career or just live a monotonous life, like in class 8th... But it was all in the topsy-turvy manner.