Hope

#59

Sana pov (ha mujhe pata hai tumhe iska hi intezar tha 😚) 

I can't understand this man! Kabhi kabhi dimaag kharab kr deta hai ye mera I mean just pani hi dala tha uss pr itna bhadakne ki kya jarurat thi mera na dimaag kharab ho gya hai subha se yahi soch soch kr ki akhir aisa bhi kya hua jo itna gussa hai vo aaj or upar se ye mausam! 

Aisa lagta hai koi bura tufan aane wala hai aunty ko puchti hu aaj cafe kab close karege! Customer to aa bhi nahi rahe hai.. Thanks to weather.. 

"aunty aaj close kab karna hai?" 

"aaj jaldi close karna padhega darling, mai abhi news dekha, it's not safe outside after 6..so you all just pack up and go home" 

"ok aunty, mai baki sab ko bolti hu pack up karne ko" 

I told other staff members about same and we all started winding up everything Yeah aaj jaldi chutti ho gayi, ab ghar ja kr sabse pahle sidharth ki pareshani puchugi, use aisa bhi kya hua ki itna battmizi se baat ki usne or use khub daant bhi lagaungi orrr ummm han! Baat bhi nahi karugi usse, pr baat na ki to pata kaise lagega ki hua kya hai, idea! Baat karugi but attitude dikhaungi 

Urf finally pack up, apna bag or phone le leti hu i picked my purse and bag to go but my phone's screen caught my attention, there was 4 missed calls from vikas bhai and 8 missed calls from garima di.. I hope she don't know about mine and Sidharth's fight I dialed her number and after 2 rings she received call 

"hello di, aap call kar rahe the, kuch kaam tha? Sab thik hai na di?" 

"mere sath to sab thik hai tum apna batao shehnaaz, tum thik ho? Aaj sidharth or tumhara jhagdha hua or kaki bata rahi thi tumne breakfast bhi nahi kiya or lunch to sidharth le jata hai hamesha tumhare liye or aaj to vo gadho ki tarha muh bana kr baitha hai, to tumne lunch kiya? "

" oh my God di ek sath itna sab puchoge to jwab kaise dungi mai? "

" acha baba baki sawalo ka jawab matt do kam se kam ye bata do ki ghar to aaogi na aaj" she asked me hesitantly I know why she is asking like this.. 

"don't worry di, mai ghar aaungi infact kuch der mw pohoch jaungi, acha di aapko pata hai sidharth ka aaj mood itna kharab kyu hai? I mean kal kuch hua tha kya? Jab mai kal ghar aayi to kafi off lag rha tha or fir aaj jis hisab se usne gussa kiya i think kuch to problem hai use "

" umm actually shehnaaz aaj maa ki death anniversary hai, so you know he stays kind of off this day and he always tries to stay alone in his room on this particular day, so may be he got angry on you because you just you know mocked him "

Fuck! What a stupid asshole I am! Jis time me mujhe use emotionally support karna tha I did the opposite by irritating him 

" hello shehnaaz are you there? "

" yeah yeah di i am, umm am so sorry di mujhe pata nahi tha iss bare me am so sorry, mai aapse ghar aake baat karti hu, bye" 

"ok shehnaaz take care, bye" 

Oh God i was so wrong about him, usne mujhe mere weak time kitna support kiya or mai gadho wali harkat karke baithi hu, such a stupid creature i am. 

"aunty I am really sorry aapje bete ka dil dukhaya maine but i promise mai use mana lugi pr usse pahle mai aapke liye pray karugi taki aap jaha bhi ho khush raho" I looked up towards sky and talked in my head to aunty, hope she could hear my mind 

I just left Cafe and reached a near by temple 

to pray for aunty, well it was almost empty because of weather, a person was winding up his shop so I just stopped him and brought a coconut 🥥 from him and went inside temple and prayed for aunty's soul to rest in peace Once i opened my eyes after praying I just realized that I was alone standing inside temple and there was nobody else now windy was blowing heavily and lightning was often, well it was scary 

I looked here and there for a shelter as this temple is open from three sides without any wall, just a few pillars to support the roof.. Now I don't have a choice i have to sit there to wait for this thunder and all to stop so i can get rickshaw I sat there with my back resting with pillar and my face towards the idol of God 

Sid pov 

"Please aa jao shehnaaz am sorry for everything please aa jao mere pass, I can't lose you" 

I don't want to lose you shehnaaz, just come back to me am sorry for everything. 

Suddenly I realized that I had not asked Madhurima about shehnaaz, agar vo madhu ke sath gayi ho to acha hai at least safe to hogi I dialed madhu's number 

"hello! Hello madhurima! Shehnaaz shehnaaz tumhare sath hai kya?" 

"nahi, kya hua? Sab thik to hai na?" 

"ha ha I will call you later bye" 

Damn it! I should search for her in near by places where she probably can take a shelter.. I sat in my car and started looking for her, the weather was getting worse, it was getting really difficult for me to drive but I couldn't stop, I need to find her and keep her safe..

It's been half an hour and am still hopeless, I just stopped my car in anger and punched steering wheel with my injured hand making it more painful for myself to bare, I deserve this, it was only me who shouted on her, I deserve this 

I always witnessed shehnaaz praying to God 

whenever we crossed this temple while going to her Cafe I think it's my time to pray for her I stepped down the car and climbed stairs to temple I felt broken and incomplete without her beside me I had never ever imagined in my life that a girl will make me feel like this.. Oh God please help me 

I reached temple and entered after removing 

my shoes outside, I saw a holy bell hanging, I 

pushed it and it made a holy noise making some energy run down my body I walked towards God's idol with my folded hands 

"bhagwan ji I am sorry,  jab jab shehnaaz aapse pray karti thi maine kabhi aapke samne sir jhuka kr pray nahi kiya, mai aapse sache dil se sorry mangta hu Sach kahu to mujhe nahi aata pray karna, kaise karte hai malum nahi, agar kuch galat karu to pahle hi sorry bolta hu.. Please aapse ek request karni hai, mujhe meri shehnaaz se milwa do, mai.. Mai ek ghante se dhundh rha hu use or. Or vo mujhe kahi nahi mil rahi hhh. Mai already apni maa ko bohot salo pahle kho chuka hu or aapko to pata hai mai apni maa se kitna pyar karta tha and even abhi karta hu, aaj ke din hi aapne mujhse meri maa chini thi but ab mai isse jyada nahi kho sakta mai meri shehnaaz ko nahi kho sakta, i. I can't lose her, ple. ase I can't lo se her. "