I'm L.S.S (Loving the Super Star)

Chapter 55: Confession

Liana

What Jayden mouth out gave chills to my spine. What am I thinking? I almost did it with him. A man who already have a fiancé, it's wrong terribly wrong. What worst I'd we almost did it in a place like that. Sure he was the first one to attack but I answered every attack that he did. It was wrong but then again, a part of me did liked what happened. Why did I respond every attack that he gave me? And is he playing with me when he mouthed those words? So many questions in my mind.

I didn't recognize that we are already at the clinic because my mind is somewhere else. The nurse quickly disinfect the wound on my feet and the nurse said it's not that serious. After hearing the nurse out I quickly went outside and the gang are outside.
"What happened to your foot Lia?" Relina asks
"Oh this, hehehe..... I tripped on a tree root near the swing" I told them "don't worry about it, the nurse said I'll be okay, nothing serious" I assured them.
"Be careful next time" Ella said and she tried to assist me.
"Wow B, I never thought you could be clumsy" Chantal said, what's that suppose to mean? Chantal's eyes are saying "something smells fishy" she really is sharp "but then again, there's a first time in everything" she smiled. Oh god... I can't tell them what happened, not ever.
Everyone are on the way back to the seminar hall, but before that. "Guys have you all seen Jerome? I'm kindda worried about him. We all shake our head, oh wait! Here he comes... My eyes caught his .
"There he is" I pointed the direction where Jerome is.

While we proceed to the hall, I caught Jerome looking at me. His looking at me differently, it's like there is sadness, pity and worry in his eyes. He gave me a weak smile and face the direction to where we are going. That was weird.

Another activity was done, also the dinner was done. Now we are at our respective dorms. I'm fixing my things so that tomorrow I won't be struggling to arrange my stuff. Before I can close my bag, I saw the retreat letter at the pocket of my bag. I texted Steven to see me off so that he could deliver my letters to the boys.

After giving the letter I try to go back at once but Steven held my hand to stop me from going back.

"I'm not yet tired, can we just stay here for a while, maybe we could talk or something?" He ask. We still have time so I accept his offer.
"What on your mind?" I ask him.
"I just want some fresh air" he replied but he is looking at the marvelous view
"Oh is that so?" I said. Oh yeah, I haven't thank him for the help earlier. "Steven thank you for the help earlier, I really do appreciate it"
"Which one? The part that I carried you away from Jayden? Or the part that I didn't tell anything to the others?" That caught me by surprise.
"Both" I answered
"You're welcome" he said with a smile "I should thank you too, for the letter that you gave me last night. It's very kind of you.... I never imagine that we will be close like this again" he added.
"I told you before didn't I? Everyone needs a second chance. That's all to it, you said sorry and I accepted it. That enough for me" I told him and give him a smile.
"Second chance" he repeats and now he looking at me at the eyes then he holds my hand "You believe in second chances Lia, do you think there's a second chance waiting for us? Can we still revive the love and relationship we have?" He ask. Okay, honestly I don't have any answer for that right now. But.....
"I don't think we do Steven" oh crap! Why did I said that?! But I don't disapprove of that answer... It just came out of my mouth, and I quite know the reason why "Look Steven, I'm sorry. The only second chance that I can give you is friendship. I hope you could understand that?" I told him and he just sigh.... I'm sorry Steven..... I'm sorry my inner thought said. Steven just smiles again
"I understand Lia, but still may I know the reason why?" He asks. What answer does he want to hear? I think I can handle the examination question rather than this question of his. I just remain silent. "Is it because of Jayden?" He asks and I turned to him immediately with a shocking look. "I thought so" he just said.
"What?" I ask with ignorance, I may know the answer but I'm still not quite sure if I can say it proudly.
"You're not good on acting dumb Liana Kyle" he smirks and put his arms at my back then he looked at me "it's very obvious we've been together for two years and at those times I got to know you some how, the way you love a man and I'm just a fool to throw that away. I know you still love Jayden, the way you kissed him earlier at the tree is a proof that you love him" oh fudge! He saw everything, another shocking look at my face "yes, I saw the whole thing. Both of you almost did it. But keep in mind I won't tell anybody about this unless you give me permission"
"I don't know what to say" I told him
"Answer this, do you still love Jayden Williams? He ask "answer it honestly Lia" he added. Honestly? I really didn't think about it. I just nod
"Yes, I still love him even though our situation is like this. I don't care if he'll be marrying Elissa, because I really do love that f*cking jerk superstar and if we aren't meant to be then I won't be loving anyone, because it's only him that I want" I admitted it. "I don't know why Steven, but I'm also confused with my feelings... I also want to ask myself why I still love him" my tears fell down from my eyes, I can't help it. All I did this retreat is cry for that jerk superstar.
"Just stay strong Lia, and always remember what you said to me. Because at this very moment... I wish for your happiness" he said. He pull me and planted a kiss on my forehead. "Of you go, get some rest because the day after tomorrow we will be going back to reality.