I'm L.S.S (Loving the Super Star)

Chapter 15: One Step Closer

Jayden

It’s early in the morning I was a little bit hungry because I didn't quite eat properly last night. I went to the cafeteria and saw Ana eating alone so I went to her table and join her. She looks better now unlike last Friday. She offered me her Carbonara so I opened my mouth "Really Jayden?" she asked, I still kept my mouth open and of course in the end she didn't resist. Last Friday her parents didn't come home, I wonder why?

"Ana why are your parents not home last Friday?" I asked her

"They are already at home Jayden..... Home with God and with the angels" she answered softy

"Oh I didn't know, I'm sorry"

"It’s okay"

"May I ask when did they.... you know?"

"Eight years ago when I was in elementary, they died because of me"

"I don't understand"

"They died in a car accident" she bows her head

"What? It’s a car accident... Why blame yourself? Nobody wants that to happen "

"It was my fault, it’s my birthday on that day, I rushed them home in the middle of a storm so I can have my presents and eat together the four of us with my elder brother, and then it happened" Ana's eyes becomrs teary

"So you still have you brother, you're still lucky"

"Yup I’m still lucky but my brother isn't. He needed to drop out of college just so he can work to keep us alive; he sacrificed his future just for me. So in return I studied hard I became Valedictorian when I was in elementary and high school. Northern University offered me a four year scholarship, I took it so my brother won't be bothered with any of my tuition fees" She exhales deeply "Also I took part time jobs for my allowance every day and some of the needed materials in school, I also chose the course that my brother wanted... Political Science and I will fulfil his dreams for him I'll become a Lawyer one day. I know it’s hard but I need to pay for my mistakes in the past, for destroying my brother’s future"

"So that's why you took up Political Science, for your brother... But all of that isn't your fault"

"Maybe it isn’t, but I felt responsible for what happened and I have to face it "

"You know sometimes you need to let go of things, you shouldn't blame yourself for something that you don’t have control of, yeah sure you rushed your parents but they have a choice, their choice is to come home so that you can celebrate your birthday, what happened is an accident and you have nothing to do with it. In your brother’s case, it’s also his choice to drop out and work so that both of you will survive."

"But" she tries to interrupt

"Did your brother blame you when your parents died? Did he blame you when he dropped out of school?" I asked her

"No, we never spoke about that"

"See, it’s not your fault" At that moment I wiped her tears "So there is no need for a beautiful maiden to cry" I told her. Her eyes are beautiful, why is she wearing that glasses? I wonder.

"You know why I look like this?" she asks me all of a sudden. 

"What look? there's nothing wrong with you" I said. Did she read my mind?

"I mean the style of my hair and glasses" 

"Oh yah, why do you arrange your face like geek?" I teased her

"Because this glasses belongs to my father and my mother used to arrange my hair up ward when I was a little girl so when I arrange my hair like this and when I wear this glasses I feel that my mom and dad are with me" tears pours out her eyes

"So that’s the story of your look" I said, but even though she looks like that she's still pretty to my eyes. 

I held her face with both hands and wipped her tears with my two thumbs.

"You don't need to cry, I'm sure your parents are watching over you and your brother. And besides Ana your friends Chantal and the others, including  me are here for you. We're also your family" I told her and smiled

"You know what? You're always there when I'm crying, do you have a magnet for girls who cries?" she asked with a smile

"No, it only works with you I guess" I teased, and her face again turned red

This girl in front of me has been through a lot. She bears a heavy burden in her life. She is indeed a strong girl, it’s amazing that a girl like her exist. You are truly different from the others Ana. I didn't know that a girl like you exist. I'm happy because step by step I'm becoming closer to her.