Bipolar

Chapter 41

Should I even talk to him? He just randomly called me saying that we need to talk, after like four months!? "Jade, answer me." He says quietly and I feel a lump grow in the back of my throat wanting to make me cry, wanting to make me feel the pain I felt when he was gone, wanting to make me feel sorry for myself.

"H-harry," I choke out, tears falling from my eyes that were burning already. Monica ignores my cries letting me talk to Harry. "Jade, meet me somewhere please?" He asks softly and I nod silently crying, wishing we never broke up in the first place. I shouldn't be talking to him, I shouldn't be going out to meet him, I shouldn't be doing any of this, but I am.

"Okay, meet me at the park." He says and I say okay then hang up clutching the phone like it was Harry's hand. "Here, take this for when the pizza guy arrives." I tell Monica as I hand her the money. "Okay," she says dragging out the 'O'. "Where are you going?" She asks concerned as I run my fingers through my knotted hair that was a mess.

"I'm going to see someone, it's an emergency. I'll be back in half an hour." I state biting my lip from being so nervous to see my ex-boyfriend, Harry Styles, who I still love, who I never stopped loving truthfully.

"Okay, well I'll be watching... Supernatural?" She says and I nod leaving, making sure to put my phone on silent because I don't want anyone to interrupt me while I'm with Harry because this may be the last time we talk.

I pull into the parking lot at the park where it was just getting dark and warm since it was summer. I get out looking around for Harry trying desperately to find him within the surrounding darkness. I finally spot him on top of the hill where he stood peacefully. ugh, I have to walk all the way up there, but Harry's up there, so it's definitely worth it.

"Hey," I say trying to hold in my pants, not like the pants I'm wearing, but like my breath. "Hi." He smiles weakly sitting down and I do the same a few feet away from him to make sure I wasn't in his personal space.

"So, what did you want to talk-" my voice starts off sounding raspy then soft, until he cuts me off.

"I miss you." He says cutting me off. I gulp looking down as I pick at the grass thinking of all the moments him and I shared, but this one has never made me this queasy. "I miss you too," I whisper. "But you have a girlfriend." I say regretting ever coming to meet him, but he shakes his head. "No, we broke up like last week. She was very rude and just a bitch really." Harry says and I stare at the ground not knowing what to do or say.

"Come here," Harry says looking at me, his eyes shining from the moonlight that was casting down on us. I scoot over to him. We lay down and I lay my head into his shoulder, my small,
cold hand on his warm, strong chest. This was perfect. I inhale delightfully, the smell of Harry's new cologne filled my nostrils and it smelled amazing.

"I missed you so much, Harry." I whisper. "I missed you too." He says kissing my forehead. Wait, what am I doing?! "Wait, we're finished. What are we doing?" I ask totally confused him sitting up and he looks at me with sadness clear in his eyes. "I just thought we broke up over a stupid reason. And I love you so much to just let you go." He says and i furrow my eyebrows trying to figure out what I should do. Of course, I want to be with him, but is it the right decision?

"I don't know, Harry. Let me just think it through and stuff," I say getting up onto my feet feeling the gravity weigh down on me. "I'll talk to you later." I whisper then walk slowly down the hill making sure I didn't fall.

I get back to my apartment and see Monica knocked out on the couch, I was only gone for like thirty minutes, and it's only eleven, oh well. I grab a few slices of pizza from the opened pizza box and sit down on my couch that my mom had given me to use from her basement.

I watched Gilmore Girls on Netflix until I was tired and stuffed, then I fell asleep next to Monica who snores a lot in her sleep, great.

The next morning I woke up from my alarm ringing on my butt, what the heck? I pull my phone out from my pocket and see that it was Monday, I have work! Shit. "Monica, Monica!" I yell kicking her which makes her wake up in a cranky mood. "What the fuck?! Leave me alone!" She yells pulling the blanket over her body some more.

"Geez, okay." I say getting up, the floor was freezing on my bare feet that had dark blue nail polish on them from when I painted them a few days ago.

I get into the shower, the warm water trickling down every part of my body which made me warm up really quick, thank goodness. I wash my body and my hair, twice, before getting out and getting into my work attire. I put my hair up into a top knot then tell Monica I was leaving and to not touch my cheesecake that was in the fridge. I was saving it for tonight when I watch The Notebook. Is it bad now that every month I eat delicious food and watch romantic movies by myself, I think not.

I get to work and there's my boss, Damon, flirting with some girl who was ordering food, and she looked younger than me! Ugh, I swear Damon is such a bastard that I want to punch him in his throat. "Good morning, Jade. Looking lovely like always." He smiles to me as I put on my apron which I had spilled coffee on a few days ago and forgot to clean it off, oh well.

"Shut it, Damon." I say blowing away the small hairs that would land in my eyes every once in a while. "Don't talk to your boss that way, missy." He says laughing and I roll my eyes then take the old man's order.

"Can I get a coffee?" He asks, his head shaking from an illness or something, it wasn't his fault though. "Um..sure." I say making it myself and giving it to him. "That'll be one dollar." I smile at him brightly. "Only a dollar?" He asks smiling back at me and I nod.

"Thank you. Have a nice day, sir!" I yell out happily as he walks out drinking his coffee. "Did you make up your mind?" I hear Harry's raspy, deep voice say causing me to turn around. He was standing there in a black shirt and black jeans. "I still have to think, I'm sorry." I say then excuse myself letting Sandra take over as cashier for a moment.

I run to the bathroom and cry endlessly wiping my eyes with rough paper towels that hurt my face when I rub against it. "Jade, Damon wants to have a word with you," Sandra says with an apologetic look in her eyes since I was crying. "Okay." I whisper straightening myself up and going to see him.

"You need to speak with me?" I gulp sitting down in his office. "Um, yes. Could you take the night shift? Hailey can't make it." He says and I look down at my chipped white nail polish that was on my fingernails. "Um..I was actually going to do some things later and I was really looking forward to the cheesecake-" Well, shit, I didn't mean to say that.

"Cheesecake? What were you going to do tonight?" He asks suspiciously towards me. "I was just going to watch romantic movies and eat, a lot. I do this once a month just for myself. I don't know." I say feeling embarrassed to say these things because now that I think about it, it sounds stupid, really stupid.

"Hmm," he says thinking for a moment. "I'll let you have the night off," he starts and I smile thanking him. "But," well darn. "I can be with you." He smirks and I look at him in disgust. "Sir, you're my boss, and you're a lot older than me, so I don't think that would be appropriate." I say and he nods, then Sandra walks in.

"Sir, the coffee machine is like messing up." She says frantically and he mutters some cuss words under his breath before getting up to see what was happening outside. I walk out behind them and see it spewing coffee everywhere making me so happy that I might be able to stay home tonight! Yes!

"Ugh, I'll have to call George so he can fix it. I guess everyone can just have the rest of the day off." He sighs running a hand through his dark brown, almost black hair.

"Thank the lord!" I yell accidentally then apologize to Damon then leave in a hurry. I can start my night earlier than I thought.

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