Arrowverse woman imagines

Bottled up feelings (Sara Lance)

Your POV

I'm tied to a table watching my parents bring in my older brother Caleb "No stop keep him out of this!" I yelled my brother looks at me in fear he has no idea what's going on "come on let him go your issues are with me he doesn't have anything to do with this he's the golden child I'm the one you hate hurt me,kill me if you want just let him go!" Tears running down my face I tried getting out of the metal holding me down but all it did was hurt me more "don't you see we are hurting you yes Caleb was always our favorite but you need to be taught a lesson, you can't be our child born a monster and run off with some girl you will learn child and we will do whatever it takes" I read Caleb's mind 'why are they doing this I can't let anything happen to her' he doesn't know about my powers to read minds "Caleb quit it your in more danger then me and you two once I get out my team and I will make you regret the day you were born" I scream as loud as I can "oh yes what team" I continue to fight but still nothing my father walks to me and holds my head still as I watch my mother stab my brother in the heart "CALEB NOOOOOO YOU MONSTERS WILL PAY"

I wake up drenched in sweat and tears Sara opens her eyes "hey babe you ok is it another nightmare...you can talk to me" she places her hand on my knee I flinch at the contact "no I'm fine I'm gonna go train" I get up but the blond grabs my hand "listen I know you've been going through hell you lost your brother then you were poisoned I understand you need time but y/n you haven't been eating your barley sleeping and your busting your ass off training I mean there could still be affects from the poison, we barely saved you..." I know there are side affects to the poison I've been feeling them but I deserve it I should be dead not Caleb I deserve to suffer "but I'm still here I'll be fine I just need time" I kiss Sara's forehead and walk away into the training room.

It's morning I think I have no idea all I know is I'm nauseous and have been punching a punching bag and working out for what feels like hours I slide down the cold wall and let my tears out it's not fair... then it hit me I can go see him I mean I just have to be careful it won't be the same but it's something Sara will forgive me besides it's not like I'll talk to him.

I sneak away in the jump ship and tell Gideon not to say anything I don't think she will listen but maybe she can buy me time. I go to my old house soon as I see it I feel sick it could be knowing my brother lives with his killer or the side affects I run into a bush and throw up everywhere I back up and run into something I look up and see a brunette staring at me "oh my I'm so sorry miss" he hold out his hand to help me up shit.

I hesitate but take his hand "thanks um no worries" I smile but my heart sinks I thought this would be easier. "Are you ok" I snap out of my little world of sadness "oh uh yeah I should get going I shouldn't even be here" he grabs my hand I turn to see his sympathy face "come sit down" I want to turn him down and turn around but I can't move "alright..." Sara is definitely going to kill me we sit down at a picnic bench in the park "so what's troubling you" I blink of course he would know but I mean that's a little straight forward "are you really asking a random stranger what's wrong" he laughs it feels like getting stabbed "you know A stranger is a friend you haven't met before" I sigh "fine alright I lost someone very special to me" he nods waiting for me to continue "my older brother he was cut in the crossfire of people wanting to get back at me... it's my fault he's gone I mean I should have fought harder or pushed him away maybe he would have never been involved" I look up into his green eyes "you should never think it's your fault and if my sister was in danger I would throw myself in front of her in a heartbeat and I wouldn't want her to think it's her fault because it was my choice" A tear falls down my face I quickly wipe it off "my girlfriend is going to kill me" he smiles "what that's definitely not good for me" he shakes his head "no not that it's just my sister is gay" my eyes go wide but I cover it up I mean I didn't come out to him until I was 20 and I'm 15 this year "really" he smiles "yeah I mean she hasn't told me but I know I also know who she like I wanna tell her I know so I can help her get the girl but I'll wait till she's ready" I can't believe he knew well he'll be waiting a while "that's really sweet of you"
"Yeah my girlfriend is something else she's incredible but I've been a total jack ass to her and my family I've been distant and cold since my brothers death" Caleb put his hand on mine I miss that feeling "well people who love you will always forgive you and help pick up the broken pieces you have to remember that they want to help" ugh why does he make so much sense "your right I've been pushing myself passed my physical limits I got hurt in the fight and I act like nothing happened and food and sleep hasn't exactly been something I've been doing lately..." My voice goes quieter I don't want him disappointed even if he thinks he doesn't know me I mean this him doesn't know me yet "well I think when you go home you should let your girlfriend take care of you it's important to grieve or it will eat you up inside" this is what I needed I wish I could tell him to run far far away but he wouldn't I know he wouldn't "yeah I guess I should" I look around me and see some blond hair in a tree a couple feet away I giggle "what's so funny" Caleb asks confused "she's watching me" he furrows his eyebrows "is that some kind of expression" I laugh "nope she's up in a tree making sure I don't do something too stupid" he looks around but doesn't see her "I really appreciate this talk you really helped me" I get up and hug him really tight because it's the last time I'll ever see him "you watch out for your sister keep her out of trouble and you can help her get the girl just don't let her find out" I let go and wink at him "it was nice meeting you see I told you a stranger is a friend you haven't met yet" I wave and walk towards the tree Sara jumps down and puts an arm around my shoulder "you ok" she asked I kiss her cheek "I think I will be im exhausted tho and hungry" she grabs my hand and rubs her thumb on the back of it in slow circles "how about I run you a bath and we can watch a movie with some popcorn and chips" I smile "I like the sound of that".

Sorry it's been awhile I just didn't have any motivation or any idea what to write

-Z