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Beautiful Soul (Title by Katy J Pearson)
"So, what is 'certainly life-altering' supposed to mean, Will?"
'And don't say the words that I think you're about to say, because it can't be. This can't be happening!'
It was one of these moments, when time stands still, when you know the next second, the next words that will come out of the other person's mouth, will change your life forever. You know you're not ready to hear them, not ready to deal with them, you don't wanna believe them, but you can't run away and hide either. You can't walk backwards, however desperately you might want to. And all the time your heart is beating so hard, it feels like it's about to burst, your eardrums surly are, and it makes you so sick to your stomach, that you can hardly speak.
"It means you're pregnant..."
Gut-punching, suffocating shock and immediate denial.
'This cannot be true!'
"I ... I can't be pregnant Will! It's just not possible!"
Maybe if she laughed it off he would show her his radiant 'got you there' smile and tell her that he was just messing with her. Not look at her in that serious doctor-manner as if she was completely stupid and obviously didn't know how babies were made. How that could have happened in the first place.
"Did you have sex lately?" Was he seriously talking extra slow towards her now?
"I can't talk to you about that! You're his brother and Jay would kill me!" Jay wouldn't like it at all that she was having this conversation with his brother, but here they were.
Will looked at her as if he wanted to say:
'Seriously? I know you guys aren't exactly living a celibate life!' and finally got her to answer him by waiting her out:
"Okay, fine! Yes, of course we had sex!"
Not just once, but still: They had been careful! She was always careful. Accidents like this didn't happen to her. Did they? Okay, they had once, but that had been a different time back then, a different life. This was not what was going to happen to her and Jay. They weren't there yet, she was still not ready to do this...
"It freaks me out, because I don't want anything to change between us! Once we were married it only went downhill for Andrea and I! And that fear of loosing another child again? I don't know if I can survive that and I already told you. So yeah, maybe I'd rather not get pregnant or married at all..."
"Did you use protection?" Now it seemed Will was really getting into sex education and thereby on her nerves.
Of course they did use protection, always. She was on the pill, had been for several years, she never messed that up, unless... Her eyes went so wide it almost hurt:
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