I am not wishing for anything so big. But this time, I am wishing that we have money so life status won't go in the way. I always see it in movies. Money changes everything.
Even love can be bought.
Wala kami no'n. I am studying so hard so that I can have a job that pays very well. I just realize that what I feel for Eugene is not important. I have more important things to do right now.
Hindi ko kailangan na maramdaman yon ngayon. Bata pa naman ako. Dadating din ako sa puntong pwede ko na payagan and sarili kong makaramdam. Tsaka na, kapag may pera na ako.
When we went back inside the restaurant. Lahat sila ay masayang nagtatawanan. Nakatingin sa akin si Ron habang palapit, habang ng iba naman ay kay Eugene. Hindi nila masyadong pinansin na sabay kaming pumasok.
I tried to keep smiling even tho my heart is really heavy. gusto kong umiyak ng hindi ko alam kung bakit. Tuwing mapapasulyap ako kay Eugene ay nakatitig lang siya sa akin. Agad akong umiiwas ng tingin.
Natapos ang isang oras ay napagpasyahan naming umuwi na. Napagusapan namin ni Ron na siya parin ang maghahatid sa akin pauwe.
"Ron, baka pwede mo na ipasabay nalang si Via kay Eugene tapos ako na sasabay sayo, since yung bahay nila is in the same way. Please. I just got a text from my Mom. Hinahanap na ako, and she just asked your Mom if magkasama tayo. Please, please please para mas madali tayong makauwi. Bawi ka nalang kay Via bukas!" Litanya ni Gracie habang nakanguso at mukhang takot na.
Ron sighed and turned to me and said. "Okay lang ba? Sabay ka nalang ka Eugene muna? Babawi ako bukas. I promise. Iuuwi ko muna tong pasaway na to, hindi ata nagpaalam sa Mommy niya." while shaking his head when we turned to Gracie na parang iiyak na.
Natawa kami bigla ng napatingin siya sa amin at lalong ngumuso.
"Okay lang, ano ka ba? Ihatid mo siya ng maayos please." I said and smiled. He smiled too and waved. Dali dali na din siyang umalis dahil nagmartsa na si Gracie papunta sa sasakyan niya.
The other guys lived nearby kaya hindi na sila sumabay sa amin.
Nang nakaalis na silang lahat ay ngayon lang nagsink in sa akin na kami lang pala ni Eugene ang magkasabay sa sasakyan. This is exactly what I need. A torture.
"It's getting late. Let's get you home." He said in a very firm voice. He's standing there waiting for me with a car door opened.
I know I blushed really hard when our eyes locked.
I swear bago ako tumingin sa ibang direksyon, nakita ko siyang ngumiti na parang nang-aasar. This is gonna be a long ride.
Agad niyang isinara ang pinto ng sasakyan ng makaupo ako ng maayos. Pinanood ko siyang umikot sa harapan ng sasakyan para makarating sa driver's seat. It's like he's moving in slow motion.
I have never felt this way. I am overwhelmed. More of this and I will snap. Sasabog ang nararamdaman ko and hindi ko na mapipigilan ang sarili ko.
This is really bad.
Eugene got to his seat and starts car immediately. Hindi naman mahabang byahe ito lalo't gabi na at hindi naman na traffic.
Hindi ako lumilingon kay Eugene dahil ayaw kong makita niya kung anong sitwasyon ko. Alam kong mababasa nya ang nararamdaman ko. He has a way of knowing things even if you don't say anything.
One more look of his dark eyes and I'll explode.
He cleared his throat and I know he'll gonna say something.
"Please, dont. Umuwi nalang tayo. Please." I said almost choking on my own saliva.
I am already in the verge of crying because I want to feel the emotions I am feeling right now, but I can't let myself. I'm in no good position feeling 'love' right now.
I don't even know if Eugene feels the same way. Baka mawala din ito, kailangan ko lang sigurong itulog ito.
I am already smiling. Thinking that might be true, itulog ko lang ay mawawala na ito. I feel so silly crying over things na hindi naman totoo.
Hindi ko namalayan na huminto pala ang sasakyan. Narinig ko nalang na sumara ang pintuan ng sasakyan at nakita kong umiikot na si Eugene sa unahan ng sasakyan papunta sa gawi ko.
He looked so angry and frustrated right now.
When he forcefully opened the door to my side, I feel so little in my seat.
Nanlilisik ang mga mata niya na parang may mali nanaman akong ginawa.
"Look at me." He said. In a very low voice. Parang anytime ay sasabog na siya sa galit.
I shook my head. Hindi ko kaya. I remained my eyes at my palm resting in my lap.
I suddenly felt his fingers in my cheek. He guided my cheek and turned my sight to him.
He doesn't look angry anymore. He still breaths like he's out of air, but he looks much softer now.
"What's the problem baby?" He said in a very calm voice. Kitang kita ko sa mga mata niya na natatakot siya. Saan? Kanino? Bakit?
Still, I said nothing. He just looks at me. He cupped my cheeks and suddenly I felt his lips over mine. He kissed me very briefly but it sent a thousand volts of electricity down my spine.
Nanlaki lamang ang mga mata ko. Hindi kayang iproseso ng utak ko. Eugene kissed me. Does it mean he likes me? He loves me?
"Please let me know what's bothering you." He said while his forehead isnresting over mine.
His breath touches my nose.
Kung icecream lang ako ay matagal na akong natunaw sa kinauupuan ko.
I tried to look at him. His eyes are closed and looks more relaxed right now. As if he found his rest.
"Wa-wala." I finally found the courage to speak. He then opened his eyes and trying to catch mine.
Hindi ko kayang tignan siya ngayon. Not in this state.
"Good. I hope this clears everything." He said and once again gave me a quick peck in my lips and then shut my door and runs towards the driver seat.
I am too stunned to speak. I just watched him start the car, smiled and drove away.
Wala pang 5minutes ay nakarating na kami sa bahay. He opened the car door for me.
"Dream of me." He playfully smiled when I blushed after he said that.
Oh, this man really know how to wrenched a girl's gut.
Nung nakasigurado na akong malayo na ang sasakyan nya ay agad na akong pumasok sa bahay. Lahat sila ay gising pa. Nagpaalam na lamang akong dederecho na sa kwarto.
I just can't believe this all happened today.
I am too overwhelmed.
So ano nga ba talaga ang nangyari? Did he meant to say that he likes me?
What in the World is happening to me right now?
