Fitting in with the people in my previous school is really hard.
Napapaisip ako na what if gusto nila ako maging kaibigan?
What if they won't look at our differences?
What if our status in life doesn't matter?
Pero habang tumatagal natututunan ko ng huwag ng pansinin ang mga bagay na wala akong mahanap na sagot.
E ano naman kung wala akong kaibigan? I have myself. That's all that matters.
Akala ko dati okay na ang lahat. Hindi na ako masyadong pinapansin sa school. They've lost their interest in me which is really good, kasi it means na hindi na nila ako pinagtatawanan or pinagiisipan ng masama.
Akala ko lang pala.
They're planning even more evil than what I've expected.
Spreading rumors. Talking behind my back. Faking friends. Name it.
Natuto nalang din akong sabayan sila.
Kahit minsan hindi ako nagsumbong sa magulang ko or sa kanino mang faculty. Mas makukuha ko lang ang attention nila kung papatulan ko sila.
Ngayong bago nanaman ang paligid ko parang umuulit lahat. May mga kumakausap nga lang sa akin ngayon and I find their gestures genuine. Iba lang siguro talaga ang ugali ng mga tao sa Maynila.
"Via!" Papasok palang ako ng gate ng University ay narinig ko na agad ang sigaw ni Gracie sa likuran ko.
She's wearing her P.E uniform and she's really pretty with her pinkish cheeks and lips.
Kumakaway sya sa akin habang naglalakad papunta sa akin. As usual, kasama niya pa din ang buong tropa niya.
Mabilis na naagaw ng pansin ko si Eugene in his most usual way of looking to people. Laging mukhang galit.
"Hi!" I said to Gracie habang chinicheck nya ang suot kong dress.
I wore a light blue dress na lagpas sa tuhod and I partnered it with my beige flats.
I put my hair up para naman hindi na ako mahirapan mamaya kakasuklay sa buhok ko.
"Nakakainggit sana pwede ring hindi muna ko mag-uniform!" Gracie said while pouting her lips.
"Makukuha ko na uniform ko mamaya. Bukas naka-uniform na din ako." I said to calm her down.
She just smiled and cling her arms around mine. Sabay na kaming naglakad papasok sa Campus.
I know that Eugene is just behind me but I want to keep my distance with him. Hindi ko alam anong nangyayari sa akin but he has his effect on me na hindi ko maipaliwanag.
"Dito na ako." I said to Gracie and pointing a pathway papunta sa una kong subject.
She pouted like a baby. Napangiti lang ako. Gracie is really cute.
"Hatid na kita." Ron said smiling. I smiled back and nodded as a response.
Ron seems to be really nice. I'm not ignorant. Alam kong hindi sya mabait sa akin dahil lang mabait sya. I know and feels thag he likes me.
I don't want to be rude about his kindness. But whenever he decided to tell me his feelings, I'll politely turn him down. Sa tingin ko hindi pa ako handa. I also a plan to study abroad so things won't work.
Bago kami umalis ay tumingin muna ako sa kanilang lahat. I smiled as way of goodbye.
I can't help but notice Eugene's glaring. You can glare all you want pero I promised that I will distance myself to you.
