i wonder with the people saying that being alive it's easy
it's not even easy
at all.
if you struggle, struggle, and struggle
and then you took a moment and see
that everything you've been struggling these days;
fighting with thoughts and emotions;
using your energy and feelings;
and then you know that it's worthless
they don't give a damn about you
they only give a damn
right away when they need something.
i have loads of suicidal thoughts in my mind
why should i survive
when dying takes a simple cut on my vein?
it will bring me to death
the place that we don't really understand at all
cause everything that is alive will be dead
eventually.
but then there's a little faith on my heart
a belief
that i deserve to be happy;
i deserve to smile and laugh without any griefs behind.
will i ever have a peaceful place
that makes me feel belonged
and wanted
also loved?
how if it's in the different dimension?
- r t w , overthinking, 10:06, 09-02-15
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dedicated to niall james horan who was born in september 13th 1993.
oh niall, you know you'll always win my heart. i love you.
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