Geek God and Xander Zee [ZaintSee]

Chapter 17

It's been a few months since I moved out. I've been living in my small condo from then on, everything was back to normal. My life, me being lazy and not working, ordering junk food for all three meals of the day. Not stepping out or exposing myself to the sun, staying in the dark, with only the computer screen lighting up the place.

Few days after I moved out Zee's tweet went viral, I was glad that he cleared it up, he tweeted 'I thought everyone would forget and let it go if stayed silent, but that doesn't seem to happen, and nor does my life seems to be normal, I'm not going to comment on anything related to my personal life, all I have to say is I am SINGLE and not involved with anyone at the moment, I would appreciate it if everyone let this go as I am in too much turmoil due to this'

I did not know how to react to that in the beginning. As a person who knew Zee, I was happy that he decided to listen to his managers, as a fan I felt sad and sympathized with him just like how all other fans did to show him their support. But as his ex-boyfriend and a person who still loves him, it broke me completely. I couldn't point out why exactly, was it because he claimed to be SINGLE now? Was it because he was going through so much without me beside him? Was it because I caused all this? I don't know, and probably will never know, all I know is that the pain will never subside.

Day permanently let me work from home, if there is an important team conference they hook me on a video call, I always attend them with a mask covering my face, because I couldn't risk someone revealing my face and Geek God trending again and due to that Zee being in the spotlight for the wrong things all over again.

Hwahwa visited once in a while, she became the only visitor, she constantly complained the whole while, she cleans up everything and prepares food for me and store it in the fridge enough for me to survive weeks, I know she cares about me, but I also know that the reason she visits. That is to go back and inform Zee about me.

The commotion died down, Zee started appearing in many events and slowly Everyone forgot, it was like nothing changed and everything was fine and normal, except ruining a beautiful thing between two people.

It was Christmas Eve, Hwahwa and Day invited me to their home, I turned it down immediately because I knew Zee would be there and it's just going to be awkward and I don't have time for drama in my life, although I want to see him and get back into his arms to heal my wound I knew I shouldn't. But at the end of the day, I'm dealing with the one and only Hwahwa, no one could say no to her, she became like my sister or mother to be precise, she was the only female figure in my life and she showered me with unconditional maternal love. After days and days of asking and asking, I finally said yes.

It was going to be the first time I stepped out in months. I mentally prepared myself for everything, for going out, for being around Day, Hwahwa for a whole evening, and most importantly to deal with the awkwardness when I meet Zee.

Day sent an SUV, I dressed up in my usual way and left, the whole way I tried to calm myself and then I finally reached, I rang the doorbell and Hwahwa welcomed me warmly with a squeaky "hello" while she wore the brightest smile. I enter and take off my mask because I know I'm in a safe place. And then my heart started drumming, I saw Zee all dressed up and looking like the definition of celebrity across the room. He looked back at me, I'm pretty sure I am red, he tried to smile but it did not reach his eyes.

"Hi," he said, his voice was enough to calm me.

"Hi" I waved back at him.