amnesia // c.p [completed]

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(i attached the studio version of superman above and you should really listen to it to add to the sadness)

"Cause I'm not fine at all"

- present day, cole -

Her old jumper was drenched in my tears.

I hadn't stopped crying for half an hour.

Everyone was probably wondering where I was.

I didn't care.

I needed something to fill the silence, so I quickly clicked shuffle on my phone.

I felt another lump in my throat when I realised what was playing.

It was our old song, Superman.

This song always used to get to me, now it was just adding to my tears.

When I heard "I'm not as strong as you think I am, I'm no superman" it made me think of all the times I'd put on a brave face, either when I pretended I wasn't upset about James and Bea, or when James threatened me daily about seeing her.

I knew it was stupid to leave this song on, but I was crying so much that I couldn't bring myself to stop it.

As I listened to the lyrics, I remembered something I kept in the boot of my car. I unlocked the car and went to get it, and took a deep breath when I saw it.

It was the bear I'd won Bea on our fair date. I grabbed it and went back to sit in the drivers seat, wiping my tears on the soft fur.

//

double update because i'm bored

i know this has finished way before superman has but sshhhh and listen to the rest of the song

why's cole so sad

YOU'LL NEVER KNOW

well you will in a few chapters

also i was actually listening to amnesia while writing this part and i started crying wtf