Love At First Sight Part Two

Chapter 232 - Broken

Eve's POV again

After having told Erling to fuck off I hear him walk through the apartment for some more but at some point I clearly hear him enter the bedroom and the Sound of the steps stops. I wait another hour and then leave the bathroom quietly so I don't wake up Erling. I put some clothes in a suitcase and then eat something, then I write a letter for Erl.
"Hey Erling,
When you read this letter I am gone. I'll be visiting Zlatko and Kathi for some days. When I come back I'll pick up my stuff and after that you will never have to see me again. Writing this hurts me so much, my heart is literally in pieces because I still love you more than anything else, but I just can't keep going as if nothing has happened. I totally get that you don't find me attractive anymore after the pregnancy and I totally understand that you're disgusted by me. But what I will never understand is that you couldn't tell me and instead got yourself some side chick. Or maybe even chicks. I don't even want to know how many girls. I will never understand. With that you didn't just break my heart, you broke my whole life. You were my world, my life, and you decided to break it apart. And I can't even hate you for it. I'm just disappointed and broken.
Anyway, I hope you'll find someone who really makes you happy because that is what you deserve.
Eve"
That's what I write and whilst doing so the tears stream down my face. It just hurts so damn much. I really thought I was gonna end up marrying Erling and having a family with him. And he destroyed this within minutes. My heart is broken. It's in pieces. Zillions of pieces. It's not only that it's over now. The fact that he couldn't even just break up with me and got himself someone else hurts so much more. That I wasn't even worth enough for a short sentence. That is the thing that hurts most.
I place the letter on the table so it will be the first thing Erl sees, then I have one last look into the apartment before I leave. I get in the car and Programm the navigation system so that it shows me the way to Salzburg. I take a moment for just sitting in the car and crying, then, as I've calmed down enough, I start driving. If everything goes right I'll be back in my home town at nine o'clock, according to Google maps it'll be an eight hour drive.
Since it's the middle of the night there are barely any other cars and so I get through the country very well. Whilst driving I listen to some slow songs. Suddenly, it's about seven o'clock, my phone starts ringing which scares me to death. I had totally got lost in my thoughts and so I didn't think about the possibility of someone calling me. I look at the screen and as I see that it isn't Erl's name I relax and loudly exhale. Then I touch the green symbol.
"Hey Gabi, what's up?", I ask, trying to hide that I've been crying but of course she heard it. "Eve. Why were you last online at three am? Why have you been crying? And why are you driving this early?", she says in a tone that shows me that lying won't be successful. I sigh and then tell her about what happened yesterday, adding: "And now I'm sure he's cheating on me. And I'm driving to Kathi and Zlatko now because I just can't see his face. And I left him a letter, telling him that I'll get my stuff in a few days and that I hope he finds someone who makes him happy. I... I just don't get it. Why does he have to do that to me? Like... I really thought we were gonna get married and start a family. I thought he loved me. And instead he cheats and shows me that I'm not even worth enough for telling me it's over. It... It just hurts so fucking much." Gabi also sighs and then answers: "I get why you are thinking like that but Eve, believe me. He never cheated on you and he will never do that. He really loves you Eve. And he wants to marry you and have children with you and grow old with you. When y'all were here and you were going for a walk with Jadon he told me about his dream future with you. His biggest dream is to one day have a beautiful house in the middle of nothing in Norway with you, nobody else living near you, and sitting on the terrace with you every morning whilst heaving breakfast and laughing and talking. Every day until death. He loves you way too much for cheating on you, believe me. And... I shouldn't be telling you... But... Fuck it, he's totally busy with planning your anniversary date. He wants to make it a perfect day full of love. Probably he was been focused on something about that." I need a moment to really get that in my mind but I still doubt. If it was like that he wouldn't have been so angry. And he would've tried more to get me out of the bathroom, wouldn't he? As I tell Gabi about my doubts she again sighs and says: "I can only say it again: he loves you. More than his own life, more than football, more than anything. But I get why that is hard to believe. But please... If he tries to talk to you listen. If you can't believe me listen to him and look at what he does for you and then you'll see how much he loves you." I promise to do so and then end the call to refuel my car. Whilst doing that my mind goes crazy. Erl's words and actions sounded and looked so much like he was cheating but I also want to believe Gabi. And it also would make sense. But what he did really didn't seem like that. Arghhhh, why does my life have to be so fucking complicated?