Love At First Sight Part Two

Chapter 215 - Jadon And Jude

Jude's POV

The time after Eve has left for Jadon is the most stressful time I've had in my life so far. Like... I don't know why he's feeling so bad and therefore I can't help him. Knowing that is really painful. Knowing that he isn't feeling good and that I can't do anything is really painful.
Luna, Erling's and Eve's dog, seems to feel my tension and also seems to want to help me. She has jumped on the sofa and is lying next to me now, her head in my lap. She's looking up to me with her beautiful eyes and it really soothes me. I softly ruffle through her soft pelt, trying to lose my nervousness and I really calm down a little. Still my thoughts are driving me crazy. What did Andre do to Jadon that he even is afraid of me? And what can I do to help him? Will I be able to do anything? Will he ever trust me enough to talk about it? I'm just so worried. And whatever happened, I really hope that I can help him. I love him more than my own life and all I want is that he's happy. I would do everything for that.
As Erl's phone on the table rings I get scared at first but then I get really nervous. Whilst Erling is talking to Eve I sit there, trying to understand anything. After a minute Erl hangs up the phone. "And?", I ask nervously. "Put you shoes and jacket on, we're driving to Jadon. He will tell you about the things that happened.", Erling says and offers me his hand. I take it and manage to stand up with his help, then we enter the corridor to put on our shoes. Then we enter his car and he starts driving. The few minutes until we arrive at Jadon's house are incredibly hard for me, I get more nervous with every second and as we have arrived I can barely even walk because my body is shaking too much. "Shhhh, stay calm. Everything is okay.", Erling says before ringing the doorbell. Eve opens the door after a few seconds. She hugs me and then says: "He's in the living room. If you need something we're in the kitchen, okay?" I nod and then take off my shoes and jacket before slowly walking to the living room. My boyfriend is sitting on the sofa, looking terrible. "Hey.", he whispers. I smile at him and while stepping closer I whisper: "Hey my bear. Can I hug you?" He nods and then stretches out his arms towards me. I sit down next to him and pull him into a tight hug. I softly stroke over his back, shoulders and neck and ruffle through his curls. He snuggles up to me and deeply inhales my scent. We stay like that for a few minutes, then I quietly say: "I know it's hard but... Can you please tell me what happened? I don't want to see you suffer, especially not because of things I do. I want to understand why you're feeling like that. And I promise you Jadon: I will never, listen, NEVER hurt you like that. I love you more than anything else in the world and all I want is you to be happy. " Jadon loudly inhales, trying to get his courage together and then starts telling me everything. "So... I already told you about all the times Andre punched me. But... that wasn't the only thing. It also happened in bed. The first times we had sex were nice but.... But then he changed. He... He didn't accept a no when I didn't want to sleep with him and just did it. At times he threatened me, sometimes he shackled me and at times he... He beat me up before doing things I didn't want with me. And now I'm so fucking scared of all of these thing, of touching, which is so stupid because I know you wouldn't do it. I'm so sorry and I really get if you break up with me now, you're young and of course you want to have sex and you can't do that with me, I'm so sorry for being so stu-" "You're not stupid Jadon. Not at all. That you had to go through these things makes me really angry and I am so sorry for you. And I really understand that you're scared of having sex now. And believe me, I won't break up with you because of that. I love you Jadon and all I want is your love and you feeling good. And for that I don't need sex. I just want to have you around, to hold and kiss you, to be with you. And I really hope you still trust me. Because I really want to be with you and to make sure you're feeling good. I want to help you and to give you the love you deserve. You're such a wonderful man and I love you with all my heart and if you still want to be with me I will do everything for you.", I interrupt him while kissing the tears off his face. Now Jadon starts crying even more and my heart breaks again, more and more with every second. I try to soothe him again, stroking over his back and hair and holding him close and his sobs slowly become more quiet. Then he whispers: "Of course I still want to be with you. Thank you so much Jude. I really don't deserve you. And... I think I wanna get some real help in form of therapy, I really wanna get rid of this trauma. Would you... Maybe go there with me for the first times? I don't think I can do it alone but with your help I'm strong enough I think." "Of course I'll accompany you! As I said, I will do everything for you, my lovely little bear.", I answer while ruffling through his hair again. He again thanks me and then wraps his arms around my neck. Our lips touch really softly and I try to not move mine too much, I want the kiss to stay that soft because I don't think Jadon would be able to deal with a rough kiss tight now. I'm just so relieved that he trusts me enough to tell me. And that he trusts me enough to let me help him. Knowing that he'll feel better soon and that I can help him now is so much better.