Love At First Sight Part Two

Chapter 237 - The Drive

Erl's POV

"Do you really have to leave?", Clemens asks with a sad face. I hug the little boy and say: "Yes, I have a match in two days. But we'll see soon, you and your mummy will visit us in two weeks. So don't be sad, my little prince, hm?" He nods but still cries a few little tears. I hug him and try to calm him down, then I hand him to Eve who also talks to him for a moment. I watch that scenery and smile happily. The way she treats is so fantastic. And I really can't wait to see her with our own children one day.

Half an hour later we're driving on the highway already. We decided to drive home in one car, Kathi and Clemens will visit us in two weeks anyway and they'll take Eve's car. We wanted to spend some time together during the drive. And I wanted to ask her what she wanted to tell me two days ago. And that's exactly what I do. I take her hand and softly stroke over her hand palm with my thumb. "Eve, I have a question. You wanted to tell me something before we argued, something that seemed to be very important. Do you... Do you still want to talk about it?", I say and then look at her for a second. She immediately tenses a little. "You don't have to.", I say, I really don't want to push her. She sighs and answers: "No it's... It's important. It isn't easy for me to talk about it but staying silent would be worse. It's... In the last few weeks I've noticed how broken I really am. How broken I still am. And how anxious I get in many situations because I'm afraid to fail. Losing our little princess broke me. Knowing that I failed the pregnancy broke me. And that my little decisions had such horrible consequences broke me. I'm... I'm so afraid of the consequences that might follow my actions now that everything becomes impossible. I... I need help, Erl. Professional help, I need therapy. And... And I need your help, Erling. I often am emotionally unstable as fuck and I might freak out or have a panic attack then. I really need your support right now, Erling. And your patience. It's really hard for me and I know it's gonna be very hard for you sometimes as well. Please don't hate me now and please don't leave me, I need you and I love you."

I'm really shocked. I knew that our baby's death still hurts her but that she still is that traumatised... I didn't know it ans right now I realise how stupid I was to not see it. I was too busy with my own pain and our anniversary and with the engagement ring and I was too stupid to take care of her like a boyfriend has to. "Eve, I won't hate you and definitely won't leave you, I love you, kjære. And I'll support you with everything. I'll do whatever is needed. And if I miss important games in order to take care of you that will be okay. All I want is you to be happy. And Eve, you did not fail the pregnancy. You did everything right and I still am unbelievably proud of you. And I'm sorry that I was too stupid to notice your suffering. I should've known how bad you're feeling and take care of you. I'm so very sorry, kjære. But now that I know we'll do it together. I'll support you and together we can do it, okay?", I say and my eyes fill with tears. She nods and then starts to cry bitterly, I don't know if it's because of the pain or the relief, probably it's both. I squeeze her hand and then take the next exit. I drive onto a parking ground and stop the car, then I pull Eve in a tight hug, trying to comfort and support her.