Never Again

05.

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Another day at Lee Richman High School sitting in the cafeteria with Olivia and Mia. Today was another hard day with Christopher using me every single day since I went to Olivias it's getting worse wanting to not live anymore. Lia hasn't been asking questions why I'm gone at night or when she wake up cause she doesn't realize it. Life is getting worse every second I'm living. My body full of bruises and having to cover them up is fucked up.

Everyday I beg for it to stop or for him to stop using me I just want it to stop. But it doesn't. I want to be free. But I know it's never going to happened. I'll never be free I'll just be stuck with my Christopher who sees me as my mother. It's hard because I can't tell anyone if I do I k ow I'm going to end up dead in the ocean or buried for no one to find my body. Sometimes I thinks what it fill like if you just stopped breathing. Where do you go? Is it just dark or do you live your life as another person.

I know one day Christopher is going to end up killing me. Either beating me to death, cutting to deep to the point the bleeding doesn't stop, or just push me off a cliff and saying I jumped. Knowing the feeling that one day it will stop it's a good thing for me. I'm not going to be going through pain. Not having fight my abuser, rapist, a traitor anymore. I'll be free.

"Riley are you okay?" Someone breaking me out of my thoughts blinking a couple of times. Seeing Wyatt, Ryder, then Ethan staring at me.

"Y-yeah I'll be right back I have to use the bathroom." Olivia and Mia nod tears coming to my eyes clearing my throat I stand up jogging away.

Making it into the stall opening it up leaning down. Throwing up everything that was in my. Flushing it falling to the floor bringing my knees to my chest I sob my eyes out. Covering my face with the sweater I was wearing. Hearing laugh walking in but walk out once I let out a sob. Why do I always have to ruin everyone's day?

Throwing my hair up into a low bun hairs sticking out. I pull myself together standing up putting a piece of gum into my mouth I look at myself into the mirror I looked like a mess. Walking out the bathroom getting stares I walk into the cafeteria Olivia looking at me I smile as I walk over.

"You okay?" She rubs my hand. The whole table looking at me I nod letting out a sigh.

"Rough day." I lay my head on the cafeteria table. Feeling Olivia run her hand through it.

"You guys don't have to be silent you guys can talk." I groan as I sit up.

"Oh! I want you to meet someone I think you'll like him!" Olivia smiles with her dimples popping out I chuckle.

"Im not looking for someone Olivia." I groan Mia chuckles looking at me.

Mia is cool I'm just not as close like how I am to Olivia.

Olivia giving me puppy dog eyes I groan.

"What's his name?" I ask as she squeals pulling out her phone.

"Meet Lorenzo Russo. He goes to a different school me and him met at a party. We've gotten close then I showed him a picture of you and he was speechless." She gasp showing me a picture I chuckle seeing her face emotions. Looking down at the phone seeing a hot guy my eyes widen taking the phone.

A man with black hair, grey eyes, his dimples showing with his grin, perfect straight white teeth, tattoos covering his arms. The phone gets snatched before I get to ahead of myself.