Never Again

24.

"We the jury, in the case of The State of California find the defendant Christopher Richard Smith guilty served thirty years in The State of California's prison." The lady speaks, the judge nods. My breath hitches my hand going onto my heartbeat feeling the beats hit my hand as beats faster than a normal pace. A sob escaping me from I didn't know I was holding. Turning to look at Ethan giving him a sad smile wrapping my arms around his torso as I sob into his chest grabbing onto his shirt for dear life.

"He's guilty, we won." I smile, Ethans lips crashing into mine taking my air. Feeling him smile against my lips tasting the sweet taste from his soft firm lips. We both pull away catching our breaths smiling at each other.

"Thank you, Jury, for your service today, this court is dismissed." The judge says hearing Christopher screams my name , Amelias name, and the name that came from him...my mother. Ethans arm wrapping around my waist as I snuggle into his chess leaving a kiss. Lia holding onto Ethans hand as she smiles at me with her cheeks red, her eyes puffy from crying, and the dried drenched cheeks from the tears.

Wiping them away with my thumb she smiles showing her baby teeth and the small tooth already frowning form when she lost it. A smile forms on my face exuding myself to use the bathroom Ethan nods before I walk away. Keeping my head down hiding them from my friends as walk towards the bathroom. Swinging the door open closing it behind me letting out a sob.

Sobs after sobs muffled of pain burin onto my bottom lip trying to stop the sobs. The mascara rolling down my cheeks leaving the makeup smearing on my face trying to wipe away. My sobs don't stop. The monster may be gone but still lives inside me. Walking over to the mirror my tears hitting the sink rolling down the drain, grabbing some paper towels wetting them before running them under my eyes getting the makeup stains on my face gone. Throwing it away staring at myself in the mirror which feels forever as the redness on my pupils go back to its color.

I just want to lay down on the bed and go to sleep.

Now I'm hungry.

What the fuck -never mind I'm just like this.

I'm weird.

Am I?

Yeah.

No.

Yeah.

No.

Yeah-FINE YES I AM!

Now I'm just yelling at myself.

Walking out the bathroom to my fiends they smile wrapping their arms around me as I hug them back they whisper sweet things in my ears making the smile grow bugging on my face. Pulling away from Ryder the last one who squished me to death almost. A sigh escaping my lips feeling a wrap around my wainwright legs smile. Ethans soft lips place in my crown holding it their giving me comfort before he pulls away making a pout grow on my face. He rolls his eyes wrapping his arm around my waist as he leads the way to the car.

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Making it back to Livs house getting out the car telling them I'm gonna go upstairs for a nap which they nod understanding. Making my way up the steps Amelia leaving me to go play with Grace as they giggle skipping away. Today didn't hurt Amelia she knows what Christopher did was bad she knows there's has to be consequences. A sigh escaping me removing my pants and shirt leaving me in a bra and underwear the door open my eyes widen seeing Ethan there with wide eyes before it turns into a smirk he closes the door before I throw on a hoodie and biker shorts.

"I liked you better just in a bra and underwear." He smiles which I roll my eyes too tossing myself on the bed laying there the soft comfort blanket under my body.

"You know my so called 'father' just got arrested." I say but more sounds like a mumbles my head stuffed into the blankets the bed dips making me roll over to Ethan. He chuckles before I remove my head from the blanket to look at him seeing his smile. A real smile. I smile back before his lips are placed on mine.

Tasting the sweet vanilla coffee we both had before leaving Livs house. Parting my lips letting his tongue slip inside my mouth exploring me. A moan escaping my mouth as we rub out tongues against each other. My hand roaming through his hair his hand on my waist rubbing small circles on the small skin showing. We both pull away breathlessly. A smiles forming on his face rolling over he removes his shoes before slipping under the covers as I do the same.

Pulling me over to him chest his right arm around my waist as he uses his left to pick up my leg to mostly be on top of him. His left hand removing from my leg running through my dark hair. My eyes getting heavy trying to stay awake.

Fuck this is hard.

I can't just sleep in his arms what if he has to leave? To go home ?

What the fuck am I doing?

STAY AWAY RILEY !

STAY AWAKE !

"Shhh...go to sleep...I know your tired cariña." He whispers kissing the crown of my neck mumbling a quick 'thank you' letting the darkness take over for me.
{translation : sweetheart}

Please be here when I wake up.

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Short chapter I know but next one will be longer just something for you guys right now.

-m <3