When the one you truely love leaves you behind...
They got into your heart, discretely, secretly, unbeknownst to you.
What is your response?
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What do you feel?
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What do you do?
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Anger?
Hatred?
Relief?
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Cry?
Scream?
Smile?
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Nothing?
Heartache?
Everything?
Respond with Anger...at yourself because you were vulnerable?
That you let yourself feel again?
Respond with Hatred...at the person you let take your heart.. Thinking they'd take care of it?
Respond with Relief...that it happened while it did. So you can be prepared for next time.
That you won't let yourself go again?
Do you cry...feeling and hearing your heart break, desperately trying to breath or be heard?
Do you scream...knowing no one will hear you, yourself being the only person to actually understand your own pain?
Do you smile...because it's over, you don't have to continue on the rollercoaster called love; being jerked every which way and only excepting the pain so that you don't fly out into oblivion?
Do you feel nothing...too numb to continue on. Blocking your heart unknowingly for those future ones to come. Building a wall of ice and fire, both impossible to get through without having to work for it?
Do you feel heartache...because you gave that person your time, your energy, and you "LIKED" them as you say. But you LOVED them and you have no time for your emotions?
Or
Do you feel everything...knowing that they are gone, probably forever and you never said goodbye. And it brings pain unlike anything you've felt before. At the same time happiness, because you're not hurting, the uncomfortable hurt that love carries along and you have run out of giving people a chance, so you isolate yourself. And then every emotion there is to feel.
You've become a sea of nothing. A dynamite stick of rage.
A cloud of grey sadness.
Falling to the feet of things you just don't understand.
So you turn to being alone.
Being alone, is what makes you happy. Or so you think.
