I've felt forgotten but never to this extent
For not anyone to remember me
For them to feel no feeling of ever knowing me
To know I never had an affect on their lives
To be a complete stranger in their eyes
THAT is forgotten.
But to feel this way...
You could hear me break
My heart my soul my very being
The feelings of
To be forgotten by the one you love...
Is to truely feel forsaken.
To know you don't know who or what I am...
To know your feelings for me aren't the same..
To know that you suddenly would feel nothing if I were to die
All because you forgot about me.
To feel as I were just another face in the background
I never knew it would hurt this much...
For me to be able to remember
Remember everything we've been through, as if it were a broken record... again and again it replays..
And for you...it's just white noise
To be able to smile and live through it again, every time I remember.
But for you...it's as if you never experienced it.
You don't know I love you, you don't know I care, you don't know that I know who you are and that I loved you no matter what.
But for me it's different... I KNOW you don't love me, I KNOW you don't care, and I KNOW that you don't know who I am...
I am nothing to you. You don't trust me anymore. You can't see that I love you for what you do and who you are.
You think I'm weird for all that I think of you, all the good things I would repeat over and over
You don't understand that you mean everything to me, and nothing could ever take your place
You push me away because... I. AM. A. STRANGER...
and you shouldn't trust strangers.
I feel so alone...
I'm the only one trying
I'm the only one that knows what's really going on..
Even if I told you, you wouldn't understand
You'd feel no pity, no sympathy, no empathy, no guilt...
Because you forgot...
But I NEED you to remember
I try to create new memories with you to prove that I am by your side
FOREVER
But inside I am dying, screaming, begging, pleading for you to remember.
Make this less of a fight.
A fight to have to hide that I already know you, ask the same questions I already know the answers to, act as qif it's the first time all over again.
To fight the need to hug you, to love you because that would only push you away.
To fight the fear of messing my second chance up with you.
Fight the chance of breaking down in front of you...making you feel repulsed by me.
Turning you away to someone else just because of a simple act that I did.
Fight the need to make you fall in love with me again...
Because you're fragile now...you can be easily broken or easily built. Anything said to you, you feel the need to believe because you know nothing different.
I can't make you believe anything that I have no proof of.
But I love you and I'll wait til you remember me again... if you remember me again.
I feel forgotten but...
Please don't leave me forsaken...
