You're okay, you're okay, you're okay... But it's not okay
The statement you repeat to yourself over and over and over again
You're okay... becomes your only friend, YOU are your only friend
The statement that keeps you sane time and time again
You rely heavily, burdeningly, dangerously on a tiny piece of hope you have left, wishing, hoping, praying not to lose it
The statement that becomes your only life line
You're okay... But it's not okay
The monologue that numbs the pain, just a little
You sob relentlessly
The saying that keeps you on your toes
Afraid of the creatures around every corner, trying to find the light in a three-way tunnel, escaping the claws of which scares you the most
You're okay...
The words your mother used to whisper
Used to calm your worries, scare away the monsters of the past...but dark silhouettes are the only things that appear before your eyes, and make peace and light the last
Things on your mind, make the darkness grow, engulfing every thought
The statement that keeps you as the time goes
The days that feel like seconds and the days that feel like centuries, short and endless but never pain-free, you scream, you yell, just trying to be
Fearless, of all that comes at you, to be the Victor and not the victim
You're okay, you're okay, you're okay... But it's not okay
The words that keep emotions from raging
Hiding them afraid, frightened yet begging to let loose, the unceasingly heavy weight fall of your aching, bruised, destroyed shoulders
That keeps it all in the dark
Your mind is blank with black, not a splash of color, not a ray of light, totally taken over by nothing of the imagination
Before you know it, it's the only thing you're saying
Yelling over the raspy voices inside your head, gripping your skull as if to keep it from falling off your shoulders...
But hey, think about it, if you let loose; let it fall
The pain would end...
The voices would stop...
But nothing would begin.
These thoughts keep the fake smile on your face, and gives your eyes that tiny spark
Because you know...
It's not okay
But...You're okay.
