I'm pissed.
I'm falling into depression again, and it's Pissing. Me. Off.
I can't do THIS. It's difficult for me to think. To be calm. To be happy. It takes to much when trying. Too much that I don't have.
You think I don't try?
You think I want to be this way?
No. I don't. And I never have, ever. It's a heavy burden to carry and I can't do it alone. But everyone else has problems, and no one has time for me.
"Sometimes the Person That Tries to Keep Everyone Happy, is the Most Lonely Person."
I'm beyond ALONE. I'm ABANDONED. With no one to take care of me. No one to be with me and no one to love me.
All I want, ask, desire; is for someone to know who I am. To know just a little bit of how I think. To know just a little bit of my emotions.
But no one is ever there. And that's what pisses me off, the most.
I'm starting not to care. I'm starting to not talk. I'm starting to not think so much. To just be reckless.
To make decisions on a wim. Not caring whether I get hurt or not.
Ever Thought, all of that?
