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messages with GODLYJISUNG...

june 17th

GODLYJISUNG
hey i miss you
sent 9:16 am

GODLYJISUNG
i hope you've eaten today
i love you
sent 3:02 pm

GODLYJISUNG
hi sorry if i'm bothering you
i just hope you're doing okay
i love you
sent 11:53 pm

june 18th

ME
sorry i've been busy
i love you too
sent 2:46 pm

GODLYJISUNG
we don't talk anymore ji
sent 2:47 pm

ME
i'm sorry
i've been really busy with the comeback
i'll try to talk more
sent 2:59 pm

GODLYJISUNG
sorry i fell asleep :(
sent 9:41 pm

june 19th

GODLYJISUNG
just want to tell you i love you
i hope you have a good day
sent 4:07 am

GODLYJISUNG
i love you
please take care of yourself
sent 8:00 am

GODLYJISUNG
i miss talking to you ji
sent 1:15 pm

GODLYJISUNG
i hope we can talk soon
i love you
sent 5:36 pm

ME
i'm sorry babe
i've been really busy
i love you too
sent 7:50 pm

june 20th

GODLYJISUNG
make sure you eat today
i love you
sent 2:10 am

GODLYJISUNG
can we talk
sent 10:26 am

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ME
yeah
everything okay?

GODLYJISUNG
no jisung
it's not

ME
what's wrong?

GODLYJISUNG
how can you ask me that right now?
you think i haven't noticed how much you've been ignoring me ?
we barely talk anymore and when you do, it's hours later
do you have any idea how that makes me feel

ME
i'm sorry
i told you i've been busy with the comeback

GODLYJISUNG
ok so how is it that the boys can find time to reply to the group chats
and you've never acted like this before when you've been preparing for a comeback
i know there's more to it so tell me the truth

ME
i am telling you the truth
i just get really busy with my music

GODLYJISUNG
you get so busy that you can't take one MINUTE out of your day to text back a simple reply ??
i don't buy that
tell me what's going on jisung

ME
i'm sorry ashton

GODLYJISUNG
that's it?
that's all you have for me??
i cant believe this
it's like you're shutting me out on purpose
what did i do?

ME
you didn't do anything
this is all on me

GODLYJISUNG
what's all on you??
just talk to me

ME
i just don't feel like i'm good enough for you

GODLYJISUNG
jisung do not start this
we have been over this before

ME
just listen
i'm never going to be able to be there for you the way you want me to be
when you're sad and i can't be there to physically comfort you, it kills me
i hate having to be apart from you like this

GODLYJISUNG
you think i like being apart from you? cause i don't
but i love you and that's why i'm okay with it

ME
i love you too
but i just can't help but feel like it's not enough for you

GODLYJISUNG
jisung listen to me
it IS enough so please stop thinking like that
it's making me feel like it's not enough for YOU

ME
honestly it's not anymore
i want to always be with you and i can't
i chose this life and i can't just leave it behind for you

GODLYJISUNG
first of all, i would never make you choose between being an idol and being with me. so it hurts that you would even THINK that.
we've been together over a year and you've never had these thoughts. we both knew a long distance relationship wouldn't be easy
so why now?

ME
i don't know
i wish i did
but i've been trying to ignore these feelings

GODLYJISUNG
just like you've been ignoring me?
jisung, we are a couple. we are supposed to work things out. but instead of telling me how you feel, you chose to ignore me and your feelings, and it wasn't helping anyone.

ME
you're one to talk about telling me how you feel about things

GODLYJISUNG
i admit it, i've secluded myself many times. but i've always come around and talked to you about things
you've been acting like this for a while
do you have any idea how i've been feeling these past few weeks

ME
no and i'm sorry i didn't open up to you
i didn't mean for any of this to happen

GODLYJISUNG
i wish i could say it's okay but it's not
you hurt me
you made me feel like you didn't love me anymore
that you had gotten what you wanted and didn't want me now

ME
what is that supposed to mean

GODLYJISUNG
sex. just like every other douche i've dated

ME
you think i used you?
are you serious right now?

GODLYJISUNG
you didn't talk to me jisung
what the hell was i supposed to think

ME
that hurt ashton
you know i would never use you

GODLYJISUNG
do i? you never put that thought to ease

ME
i cant believe you right now
i know i've been a dick for ignoring you but i would never use someone. let alone someone i love

GODLYJISUNG
i'm sorry jisung
i let my anger get the best of me
i don't think that i promise

ME
yeah...
i'm sorry too
i love you but i need some space right now