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BANGCHRIS is typing...

BANGCHRIS
hey you ok?
i've noticed you don't reply in the group chats much

GODLYJISUNG
my head hurts and i keep crying
so no i'm not ok :(

BANGCHRIS
you wanna talk about it?

GODLYJISUNG
jisung and i had another fight

BANGCHRIS
oh sorry :( i didn't know
han hasn't said anything about it
but he has been acting weird
what was it about this time?

GODLYJISUNG
the same thing
he got jealous over me being close with felix

BANGCHRIS
seriously?

GODLYJISUNG
yeah
he was basically saying he hopes i don't lose feelings for him and fall for lix
it really pissed me off

BANGCHRIS
i understand :(

GODLYJISUNG
he just doesn't get it
we've been together for over a year now. doesn't he trust me??
why would he think i would do that to him?
i just don't understand 😞

BANGCHRIS
i'm sorry ash :(
maybe you guys should talk about it

GODLYJISUNG
i don't want to talk to him if he's not going to be reasonable
all this unnecessary jealousy is really starting to stress me out and i really don't need it rn chan

BANGCHRIS
is everything ok? i'm getting vibes from u
you know you can always talk to me, right?

GODLYJISUNG
yeah ofc 🥺
i'm just really stressed out and my anxiety has been acting up a lot lately

BANGCHRIS
what are you stressed about?
maybe talking about it will help you feel a little better

GODLYJISUNG
well my job is stressing me out. and so is my family. and i don't even want to get started on the issue with my dad.
it's just kinda everything adding up at once :(

BANGCHRIS
i'm sorry :(
i won't force you to talk about it
but remember that i'm always here for you

GODLYJISUNG
yeah i know
you're a good person chan 😭

BANGCHRIS
i like to believe so :)
can i give you some advice?
not only for what's going on with you but also for you and han

GODLYJISUNG
yes ofc 🥺

BANGCHRIS
firstly, i'm not sure what's going on at your job or with your family, but try not to over stress about it. take deep breaths when things get overwhelming. remember to put yourself first. if you need a moment to take a break, take it.
i've known you for quite a while. and i know you bottle things in cause you don't want to burden people. but i'm telling you now that you can always come vent to me. put your burdens on me. i seriously don't mind at all.
as for you and han, don't give up so easily. things will work out between you. i think you both have something really special that's worth saving and fighting for.

GODLYJISUNG
i love him chris
and i'm scared that i'm going to lose him
but i also don't want to keep fighting like this with him

BANGCHRIS
jisung has his own problems and he gets so insecure sometimes. and i think he's just afraid to lose you too.
that doesn't excuse his behavior. but he always acts first and doesn't think. i know it can be frustrating when you argue over him getting jealous.
but arguing is just a part of being in a relationship. no one is perfect after all

GODLYJISUNG
you're right :(

BANGCHRIS
i'm going to talk to him
don't worry
everything will be ok

GODLYJISUNG
okay :(

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i panted hard as i forced myself to do push-ups. my muscles were screaming at me, begging me to stop. but i ignored it. i needed to work out my frustrations.

it had been a couple days since ashton got upset with me. i was mad. but not at ashton. i was mad at myself.

i'm sure i hurt her. i know she was pissed at me. i had never seen her so mad. once again, it was over being insecure and getting jealous. i felt horrible.

"how'd i know i'd find you here?" i heard chan say as he came into the gym. i stopped and sat back on my knees. "what are you doing here, anyways? you know it's like 3 am right?"

"yeah," i muttered. "i can't sleep." i grabbed my water bottle and took a swig. "what are you doing here?"

"i feel like we need to talk," chan sat down on a nearby bench. i sighed and stood up, walking over to sit next to him. i had a feeling what this was about.

"let me guess, you talked to ashton?" i asked and chan nodded.

"let me ask you something. do you trust ashton?" chan asked and i looked at him shocked.

"of course." why wouldn't i trust her?

"then why would you think she would lose feelings for you and start liking felix? you guys have been together for a year. do you seriously think she would do that to you?"

i sighed and shook my head. "no, i know she wouldn't. i don't know what i was thinking..."

"you weren't thinking, jisung," chan said and i winced at the bitterness in his tone. "she loves you, jisung. so stop being an ass and getting jealous over things like this. she's going through her own shit and she needs you. she didn't admit it to me but i could tell that it was you she wanted to vent to. not me."

"you need to stop thinking so much. yes, she's friends with all of us. but she's also your girlfriend. no one is going to steal her from you. that i can promise you. we wouldn't do that to you, you know that."

i sighed again and nodded. "yeah. i know."

"also, if you trust her like you say you do, you need to start acting like it. stop being so jealous all the time. she's with you for a reason, dummy."

"yeah," i mumbled. "i know."

"yeah? okay then. go get your girl, han. i'll see you at the dorms, okay?"

i nodded and watched as he left the gym. i pulled my phone out and unlocked it, immediately going to the snapchat app.