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ashton wiped her tears for the umpteenth time. her emotions were all over the place and she was just feeling awful about herself. the small movement of her cat caught her attention and she reached down, petting its soft fur.

"you're a good boy," she muttered and the cat looked at her, standing up and walking closer to her. he nudged her cheek, making the slightest smile grow onto her lips.

she grabbed her phone and sighed, seeing that it was past 2 pm. she sat up in her bed and her cat moved into her lap. "why are you so needy today?" she mumbled as she slightly squished his face and kissed his head.

despite her cat's attempts to settle himself on her lap, she pushed the covers off and forced herself out of bed. she walked into the bathroom and looked at her reflection, sighing softly.

with everything going on, she was tired of feeling so down. she needed some sort of change. she knew deep down that it wouldn't really change the way she felt but she needed the newness in her life, no matter what it was.

ashton quickly brushed her hair and pulled it back into a low ponytail. she looked at herself again, pursing her lips for a moment. she had thought about giving herself bangs before but had always been too chicken to actually do it.

fuck it, she thought. she started parting a section away from the front center of her head. then she grabbed her scissors from under the sink and started cutting them. they were messy and reached just a bit below her eyebrows, but she liked them.

she walked out of the bathroom and into her bedroom. she grabbed her phone just as it started ringing. it was elisia. she slid the answer button over. "hello?"

"hey, are you busy?" elisia asked.

"no, why?" ashton questioned her.

"cool. get dressed then. i want mexican." she paused but before ashton could protest, elisia continued talking. "and i'm not taking no for an answer."

"all right, fine."

fifteen minutes later, ashton was dressed and walking outside to elisia's car. she slid into the passenger seat and looked over at elisia, who was looking at her.

"you cut your bangs?" she said and ashton nodded. elisia smiled softly. "they look cute on you. i like them."

"thanks," ashton mumbled then looked down at her lap.

"all right, spill. what's up? neither you or jisung have been replying to the group chats. and now you're acting like this. what's wrong?"

"it's just a number of things," ashton said and elisia looked at her expectantly. "ji and i had another argument. he had gotten jealous over me being close with felix and told me that he didn't want me to catch feelings for him."

"he does know felix is in a relationship, right?" elisia asked and ashton shrugged a bit.

"i told him him getting jealous over dumb shit was starting to get annoying. and i really didn't want to argue with him about it, so i told him to talk to me when he was done being a child. i mean, maybe i overreacted about the whole thing. but i'm already so stressed out. i didn't need something else to stress out about."

elisia frowned. "what's wrong? you know you can talk to me about anything."

"yeah, i know," ashton smiled over at her. "things have just been tough lately. me and my mom keep arguing and she keeps making me feel unwanted. she always has this 'if you don't like it, move out' attitude whenever we get into it. she's said it to me a lot and it's really hurtful.

"and then my dad started talking to me again and it's been months since we talked. i don't know what i'm going to do about him. i don't want to keep forcing a relationship with him but i also don't want to hurt him. you would think after all the shit he's put us through that i would be able to hurt him back. but i can't..."

"i know how you feel, babe. you know my situation with my father, if you can even call him that," elisia frowned and ashton nodded. "everything will be okay though. you just gotta hang in there."

ashton nodded again and elisia grinned over at her as she started the car. she grabbed her phone and shuffled her playlist. "i think we both need this."

ashton smiled a bit. she did need this. her phone buzzed in her lap, making her look down at it. her heart skipped as she read the notification.

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