Promising The Moon - 《Jaywon》

no.2

Jay woke up , it was morning, he doesn't remember what happened only the sad part where his parents hates him and grounded him , nothing more , he knows that he will go nowhere . He will stay at his room all day , and not only this day but other days too....maybe all his life who knows, he can't be straight. He loves boys not girls.

And why is that a problem, he doesn't know why his parents are against it. Why? So many questions filled Jay's mind , he was going insane, if he doesn't leave he might do something , he have anger issues.

"AGHHH" Jay yelled taking the frustration all out by screaming. He hates this , he hated so much . He didn't want to cry for something like this but his tears didn't stop , his tears didn't stop rolling down his cheeks. Making his head to hurt, looking at his room ,his room was moving, he didn't felt himself anymore, he felt dead but alive .

He fall on the ground, hitting his head and fainted. Will someone help him? Ofcourse no , no one cares for him .if His own parents doesn't care about him then who?. Who will be by his side. All alone , he doesn't think someone will love him. He thinks that everyone is hating him now for being who he is , for being gay , for liking guys and not girls.

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He woke up, he found himself on the ground, he woke up cuz he just fainted and no one helped him , jay got up holding his head cuz he had a head ache, he sat down on the bed . Looking at his room , at his sheep plushie who he hugs every night until he falls asleep.

Jay got up and goes to his desk to turn his laptop on , it did turn on but no wifi, his dad seems that he changed the wifi. Letting out a sigh .

'No wifi too.....what now ...no food?' Jay thought, he felt so bad right now, he didn't know what to do .

He looks at the wall where the clock was . It was dinner time , suddenly his stomach starts to mumbling making weird noises , it was looking for food , water , will he get them .

No so much minutes passed , someone unlocked his door , he looks at the door and he saw the maid there , he had food In his arm . he looks down , he felt bad for jay . he cant help him .

"I'm sorry...jay hyung....here's some food that mister park ordered me to give it to you " the maid said, he was like a friend to jay . He was young himself too but he needed money so he is now a maid in this house .

"No need to worry niki ....you can leave it " jay said , he tried not to cry in front of him . Niki nods and let the plate in Jay's desk and he was about to leave but stops, he looks back at jay .

"Oh and .....dont worry about no one ....I support you and I will support you forever " niki said with a smile in his face , he wanted to see jay smile , jay thinks a little and looks at niki giving him a really sad small smile .

Niki bows and left closing the door and locking it , this was the order, he needed to do this , it was his job after all . Niki just Hope's that everything will be fine . Like it used to be .

Jay used to be happy and always smiling, he had a cute smile but now all you can see is a sad one and you can see this sad smile rarely.

Jay got up approaches the desk, he sat down ,he was hungry , so he decided to eat , he doesn't care if his dad ordered this, he wanted to eat , if he didn't he would die from hunger.

Eating peaceful, hoping everything will be like it used to be , eating in the kitchen table with his parents . But he doesn't think that this will happen . He will not stop loving boys. And he doesn't see a problem with it.

At least someone supports him. Right? Or niki said that cuz he felt bad for his hyung . Jay had a lot of negative thoughts. He wasnt himself, he have pangs in his heart, he feels like someone is calling for him but he can't answer.

It feels like he is under the water and cant speak, cant speak cuz there is so much water that he will drown .

It was hard ....it was so hard for jay ,he doesn't know what gotten into him ,but he is really sad , and he isn't sad because of his parents not supporting him , or because he is grounded . He doesn't know why is he sad , he is sad , so sad that he cries every night .

He felt like he is in a small box and cant get outside , he couldn't breath . Eating the food with tears in his eyes , in his cheeks, those tears that dripped in his spoon and ate them with the food. He didn't mind , it's his tears anyway.

It was time for bed , he lays down, closing his eyes , he wanted to sleep and maybe wake up in another world, maybe this is all a dream that Jay is dreaming and he wants to wake up , he wish this was true , that this was all a dream and not reality .

He finally falls asleep .

In the middle of the night , he woke up . Feeling all wet , he sweated a lot , he probably had a lot of nightmares, he looks at the clock in the wall .

'04 : 25' jay read the time in his mind . He took a breath , no water in his room so he can cool down .

He gets up and goes in the window, looking at the sea in front of him . Yes , his house was near the sea, the sea was like 100 meters away from his window, the big moon in the middle of the sea .

The view looks beautiful but then , jay saw something, more like someone .
Standing still , looking at the sea . It was far away so he couldn't see that well but it looks like a person .

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Thank you.