Promising The Moon - 《Jaywon》

no.4

He did anyway "DONT LEAVE...IM ALONE TOO " this was what jay said , hoping that no one heard him and hoping that he doesn't run away again.

To his surprise he didn't, instead he was coming more close to Jay's direction.

Jay panics a little , he doesn't even know who they are , what if they are bad person. He was coming more and more closer, walking , he then stops looking up at where jay was . Jay looking from the window and that boy on the ground ,looking up at jay with curiosity in his face .

Jay didn't know what to say , he doesn't even know why did he called him . Who is this boy . Was he alone too , is he like jay too.

No one spoke , waiting for someone to talk first , but what will jay say , he needs to speak first since he yelled and brought this boy here .

"Um....hi?" Jay said , not really sure if this was good . He didn't want to scare this boy.  Jay can see his face better now and yeah it is a boy , a cute boy. 

"Hey" the boy spoke , his voice soft and really clean , it blessed Jay's ears , if jay couldn't sleep, he would love to have him all night and sing a lullaby or only speak so Jay can fall asleep. His voice is just beautiful and memorizing.

"Um...hehe " jay let out an awkward giggle, touching his hairs out of habit, he was nervous, this boy made him nervous, jay was nervous that if he says something, he was scared that this boy will leave and never come back.

This boy was about to say something but jay looks back at his door. "Run....please...someone is coming in my room" jay said and the next thing he did was close the window, and lay down acting like he was sleeping . And for that boy he run too like Jay said, he was confused about everything, so much confused about his life too.

Jay waits for someone to come to his room but no one came , jay sat down looking at the door , he let out a sigh . He wanted to punch himself now , its because he was scared and he thought that some was coming but the truth is that it was no one,  he imagined it.

He felt like crying now cuz he told that boy to run " what if he wont come back anymore....fuck me ....fuck" jay said to himself hitting his head with his palms .

"Aghhh....I'm going crazy....please I want to wake up so bad " jay said to himself again and lays down , he was tired and also hungry, he didn't ate nothing this day , only one cup of water nothing more.

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Next morning....jay woke up , he felt sick , he felt so bad , he felt like crying, he felt sad , he felt.....a lot of emotions that he can't figure out why ....why was this happening to him ....only because he is grounded?...'I dont think so....there's something else too ' jay thought.

His stomach hurts, it was looking for food , he smells food , he looks at his desk and saw the plate that niki brought it to him last night, he got up and sat in the chair , taking the spoon and ate food . He was hungry.

Suddenly he thought of him , the boy from last night , his voice , his voice that jay still can hear him talk.  Jay smiles only by thinking of him which he stops smiling when he realized what he did . 'Did I just smile....no I probably wont see him again....I told him to run ' jay thought , he hated himself now .

He shouldn't have told him to run...maybe tell him to hide was better , maybe .

He finished eating, he didn't know what to do now . The day passes by slowly , more slowly,  he wanted it to pass faster , what's the point of passing slowly when he doesn't do nothing.

It was night like 9PM....it was dinner time, as always niki brought food in his room . "Jay hyung...if you like you can talk with me .." niki said , waiting for an answer.

Jay wanted to talk but he wasn't in a mood to speak , he was lazy to open his mouth "next time niki " jay said and niki nods . He bows and leaves.

"Please..dont bow at me okay " Jay spoke and made niki to stop walking "all right jay hyung....good night " niki said and left locking the door.

Jay ate .....he didn't want to have stomach ache like last night . Soon he finished eating, lays down in his bed ready to sleep , he wanted to meet him again , falling asleep with a smile in his face .

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Again...jay woke up at 4 in the morning, he doesn need to set the timer , he have been seeing the same dream and he wakes up by that dream .

He got up fast and looks and opened the window, looking but he didn't saw him nowhere .

Jay got sad ....'fuck....did he really run away and wont come back?' Jay thought. He was about to close the window but stopes when he heard someone speak,  the familiar voice.

"Were you looking for me ?"

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Thank you.