Promising The Moon - 《Jaywon》

no.25

'What's wrong with him?' Jungwon thought.

Jay was looking straight at the big moon, today the moon was so pretty that jay kept on looking at the moon.
Jungwon didn't know what was going on. Looking at Jay's face.

"Jay hyung....are you okay ?" Jungwon asked with a quiet sweet voice . Jay heard his voice and suddenly a tear escaped his eye . Jungwon got worried about jay .

"Why are you crying?...please say something hyung " jungwon spoke with a sad tone . He felt bad for Jay and he hope that his dad didn't do something to him again.

Jay only shook his head, "I love you " jay said which it surprised jungwon but also those words kinda scared him. Jay got up from where he was sitting, looking at the moon .

'Wait for me....I'm coming ' jay thought saying it to the moon,  walking straight, making his legs wet , he was on the sea , still walking , he didn't care if he drowned and dies , he didn't swim , walking till the water covered his head and you couldn't see jay anymore .

"JAY HYUNG " jungwon yelled , going to jay, running, he was on the sea , jay was  nowhere to see , jungwon panics and started to cry " jay" jungwon said and he goes under the water .

There he is,  he saw jay ,with his eyes open , he still was alive and jungwon goes to him. He wanted to yell at jay but he couldn't cuz his head was under water .

Since the moon shines ,you can see under the sea .

Jungwon held Jay's hands and was about to swim and go up to breath but jay took his hands away, he didn't want to come there , he wanted to die at this moment .

Jungwon said something, making bubbles,  he looked mad but jay didn't care,  jay closed his eyes. The next thing jungwon did was . ......

He kissed jay , their first kiss , jungwon closed his eyes and jay opened them, noticing what was happening . Was he kissing jungwon , his first kiss.

Jungwon placed his palms holding Jay's neck, he kept his lips into Jay's,  he didn't want to take them away , he craved this.

Jay was shocked but soon he brought his hand and held jungwons waist , the water floating them under the sea. Jay finally opened his mouth so he can kiss Jungwon better .

Water coming inside his moth , he didn't care , he was kissing jungwon.
Jungwon did the same.

This feels nice , kissing someone that you want , those lips that were soft , pinkish . The lips that everyone wants but can't have them. Jay has them and he is kissing those lips. Jungwons lips.

They felt like they couldn't breathe anymore and jungwon broke he kiss taking Jay with him,  finally they can breath.

Taking deep breaths , wiping their nose, coughing because of the water. Jungwon looks at jay with tears in his eyes "are you stupid?" Jungwon said,  he didn't care if they just kissed , he was mad at jay for trying to kill himself.

Jay didn't said nothing, he goes off the water and wanted to go back to his room but jungwon stops him , they're standing on the sand .

"Dont leave me .....why" jungwon said, pushing jay with his hands, "why...." again jungwon spoke , his voice shaking, he pushed again jay , jay going backwards.

"You really wanted to die and leave me alone ?" Jungwon asked and his tears rolling down.  Jay didn't know what to say , he felt bad for jungwon, he didn't know why was he trying to kill himself, he wasn't in his right mind , he was following the moon only .

Jungwon stoped pushing jay and looks at him , with teary eyes , it broke Jay's heart. "I'm sorry " jay spoke quietly and was about to hug jungwon but jungwon backed away.

"No....you promised me....promised that you'll stay by my side .....we promised each other that we'll stay together...did you forgot? " jungwon asked .

Jay felt guilty " I didn't forgot....I'm sorry .....I didn't know what I was doing " jay said and held himself back from crying too .

Jungwon shakes is head , he was mad at jay but also wanted to hug him .

"I'm sorry ...please jungwon...I'm sorry " jay said and hugged jungwon, this time jungwon didn't backed away, he let jay to hug him , both crying, hugging each other.

"Don't do that again " jungwon said and jay only cries silently.

'I wish ' jay thought .

Soon,  jay couldn't feel jungwon anymore , jungwon wasn't there and jay doesn't know where he is.

'I want to see you one more time ' .

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Thank you.