Promising The Moon - 《Jaywon》

no.23

He hopes its nothing serious and not to get scared by his dads words.

Sitting down in his chair , looking at his laptop , turning it on , trying to see if he have wifi but still no . Even if he does , he doesn't have friends who hangout with him , only his classmates but they are his classmates not friends.

Jay gets so bored , staying at his room all day , doing nothing. His dad needs to stop this , jay can't change himself, it wasn't a choice, he loves boys . He was born to love boys.

Getting up approaching his window, opening it and looks at the sky , so clear and beautiful, the sun big and bright , the yard green so pretty , around the yard full with plants , flowers, trees .

His house was pretty, enjoying the view . Soon he saw someone at his yard , the man was probably at his 40s, his dad was there too , they looked like they were talking about something.

While jay was looking at them , his dad pointed at Jay's room and made that man to look at jay , jay was confused.

'Are they talking about me?' Jay thought, slowly shivered from his toes to his head , he felt that something will happen . Sighs and closed the window going back to his bed , doing nothing.

Why was his life like his, it doesn't even feel like its reality, he just lived in this world , a world that is unknown to him.
Jay felt more dead than alive , jungwon told jay the same , that he feels like Jay.

Sometimes jay really hopes that jungwon isn't lying and messing with Jay's mind .

True , jay is sick, he have a lot of issues.
He took deep breaths , he decided to take a nap , what's the point of staying in his room doing nothing anyway.
So he fall asleep on his bed without covering himself with a blanked, its hot anyway.

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"So....are you sure that you want me to do this to your son mr.park ?" One doctor asked , and james nods .

He wasnt a regular doctor, more like illegal one , doing some works only for money.

"Yes I'm sure .....let's wait some more times and you'll start with your work " james said and the doctor nods in understatement.

The doctor is thinking like what kind of dad is james, why would he do this to his son without his permission. Sighing.
He will pay a lot though.

Some time have passes and it was like 10pm . James took the doctor upstairs.

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Jay who was asleep , sleeping peacefully  , dreaming , he felt someone in his room which it made him to open his eyes and look who it was .

'Who's he?' Jay thought, he looked near that man and saw his dad with a smile in his face which it looked creepy to jay . Fear coming inside his body .

"What's wrong?" Jay asked with a shaky voice. James gave permission to the doctor to speak.

"Hello..I'm doctor Choi " the doctor said (none from idols ). Smiling at jay and jay looking at him with poker face.

"Dad?" Jay spoke,  he didn't know what was going on and why was a doctor in his room . What is his dad planning.

"Dont worry jongseong.....he will just check on you " Jay's dad said and jay shakes his head . There's nothing wrong with Jay,  he is completely fine , what check up will he do .

"I'm...fine " jay said and james smiled "I'm not talking about your health" his dad said and doctor Choi only listen to their conversation.

"Now jongseong...be a good boy and tell me something " james said and jay slowly nods his head, he was scared. He can feel pangs in his heart . "What?" Jay said with a small voice tone , to scared to speak.

"Have you even slept with a boy before?" His dad said now making a serious face , Jay looks at him dumbfounded, "what question is this?" Jay asked . Why would his dad ask this and in front of this doctor.

"I asked didn't I...now answer " james said and jay got mad getting up from his bed " no ...and why do you need to know " jay replied. His face filled with fear .

"I dont believe you " james said and looked at the doctor Choi " you can do wherever you want now " james said and was about to leave but jay stoped him , holding his dad by his wrist .

"D-dad....what will happen....what is this" jay asked , ready to cry. James gave jay a smile , "he will check on you if you have had a sex with a boy " james said and was about to leave but Jay held him more stronger.

"No....please dad dont do this to me .......DONT LEAVE ME " Jay said but his dad took his hand away from him and left , closing the door , made jay to knock on the door , crying now.

"NOO" Jay said .

The doctor only stood there , with a needle in his hand ,looking at Jay. Jay looked at him with a fear in his eyes , slowly walking backwards "please....dont do nothing to me " jay said , shaking his head , his eyes swallowed from crying .

"I'm sorry ....your dad paid me enough..I'm doing my work " doctor choi said.

"No....trust me ....I haven't done that with any gender" jay said , holding on the doctors hand , begging him but the doctor didn't do nothing .

"I'm sorry " doctor choi said and since jay was close to him , he stabbed Jay's neck with the needle and made jay to fall asleep , falling on the ground with a loud thund.

Doctor choi should have believed him ....jay haven't slept with no boy or girl ....jay haven't dated no man he doesn't even have his first kiss yet .

But still his dad paid someone to see if he have slept with a boy. So sad don't you think so .

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Thank you.