Pyaar, Prema ..... Friendship?

🖤Chapter 28🖤

"Hey" Ashwin shakes out of his dazed situation when he hears Roshan from behind, clearing his throat and looking at him from the mirror, a watery smile in his face. "Yenda oru maathiri yave irukke? All okay? Athan Shana than media kite leak paniruka nu terinjiruche, apro yen nervous ah irukke?" Roshan asks as he enters the room and sits on his bed, a questioning look on his face. "Shana pathi ellam ille, inthe divorce proceeding nenichi than nervous ah vum bayama vum irukku" "Yen?" "Inthe problem illamele naange divorce paniruntha, we would have just laughed it off and hung out together right after that, but ipo? She's not the one signing, her power of attorney is and I'm getting this sick kinda feeling that I'm just gonna lose her forever" he says as he runs his fingers through his hairs, untangling the knots in it. Ashwin goes through the motion of getting ready as if on autopilot when Roshan breaks the silence "Naa unkite onnu keepen, aana nee kova pada kudathu" he asks and Ashwin looks at him with a raised eyebrow through the mirror "Kelu" "Unekku unmailiye Ahana mele oru percent love kude irunthileya? I mean romantic love not friendship love. Like, thaapa nenechikathe, but when I first met you guys I honestly thought you guys were together, and then I was shocked when you guys said you're just friends. Yena, ungge alavuku closeness, nee yaaru kitayum kamichutu ille and apeyum ketta kude you guys just brush it off as friendship. So I was just wondering, have you guys even tried being more than friends?" he asks and Ashwin sighs as he looks at the collage of polaroids they took throughout the six years of friendship at the far end of his room wall.

"To be extremely honest, naa ava anthe parveile paakave ille. I've always seen her as my friend, as someone who was beside me throughout the six years I've known her. You helped me, Sanjeev helped me  but you guys didn't understand the internal battle I went through everytime my audition was another failure and I was completely okay with that,  when Ahana came into my life. She understood, she helped me to understand that just because we chose a profession that seems easy to other people, has it's own set of struggles and hard work and it isn't being dramatic. She helped me through my depressions and anxiety and most importantly the patience in me. She made me understand that being an introvert is not a bad thing in the industry, and being an extrovert don't really seal any deals. She shared her experience and I was shocked that most of what I went through at the age of 25 she went through at her early teenage years. Ava sonne orey oru sentence that until now it's etched deep in my heart and I'll forever be thankful to God. Ava sonna, naa ineruthuku give up paniruntha, naa un minukku ipiidi uyirode ukkanthu pesikitu irukke maaten, depression and anxiety is not selective, yelathukum varum, athe nambe yepdi handle panrum, yepdi overcome panrumlethan irukku and I managed it well. Apo yosichen ava teenager ah irukumbothe ava ithu yelathiyum face panitu than ipo nala nelemeiku irukkana yen nambelale mudiyathu, that's when I promised myself that I wouldn't give up and it payed the biggest price. I still remember, on the day I got my first award, yaaru plan pannagenu terle but she was the one who was presenting for my category. And the whole while she was staring at the screen and nominees ellam mudinjone, she opened the envelope in her hand. I'm telling you that was the very first time  her face literally bloomed. Avalo brightness avalode face leh, her eyes was shining and she was hyping me up when I was walking up to the stage and apo naa kadavul kite vendikiten, epavume ava face ippidye ithe brightness ode happiness ode irukumnune. Yes she's beautiful, she's gorgeous and she's a perfect girlfriend material but ava oru thaati kude anthe maare enkite nadanthukule and naanum ketten unneku en mele crush illeya nu athuke ava light ah siricha. Yen nu kekumbothu ava sonna yaarukuthan un mele crush varame irukkum? Ennekum un mele crush irukku aana my reason is different, I have a crush on you not solely based on your looks but for who you are in the inside, for that raw Ashwin only I get to see, athunala enukku un mele oru admiration but athukunu I won't take advantage of the friendship we have. And my respect on her increased yenna it's very easy to change your feelings towards your best friend into something romantic but she's never done that, athunaale than munthi inthe maare rumours vanthalum it will be a joking matter between us"