Rejected

part 15

Picture of Ashley's, Jacob's and Zanes wolves....totally got them from the internet but I mean who doesn't?

I stopped in front of the water. I've never been in more than 3 feet of water. And Jacob's already swimming far away. Last time i almost drowned was... When was it. It kept tugging at the edge of my brain. I just waved it away and slowly walked in the water.

The water felt good. Not to cold nor to warm. As I went deeper in almost to my waist I started hyperventilating.

"I can't... I can't..." I kept repeating it. I shook my head. "Stop it Ash.. You can you can." I went in further. Almost to my bottom chest. I looked around. I couldn't see Jacob. "Jacob?" I yelled out. I was getting anxious.

I started sobbing and headed back to the shore. I was swimming yet my feet wouldn't leave the ground. I didn't dare look back into the ocean. Sobs whacked my body making me tremble.

When I reached shore I ran grabbing all my clothes and left. I slid on my shirt as I ran back to the bonfire. I stepped into my shorts and tumbled a bit but I didn't fall.

When I made it to the bonfire I fell into a heap of mess. I was far away from everyone so they wouldn't hear or see me. I wept in my hands.  I was mad and sad at the same time. I couldn't believe he did that. He left me.

I was still crying when I heard someone walk up to me. "I want to be alone." I mumbled into my knees. I heard them sigh and sit down next to me. I growled and shot my head up. "I thought I said...." I trailed off when I noticed it was our alpha. "I'm sorry alpha." I said my head down.

"Whats wrong Ash." I looked away. I pulled up my legs and propped my chin on them.

"Nothing." I whispered. I starting crying again. Zane reached over and pulled me to him. I cried into his arms. I felt safe with him. Almost calmed too.

"Shhh stop crying." he said running his hand down my back. I sighed and got back up off of him.

"He left me... " I said quietly after a few minutes. I saw him stiffen his hands clenching into fists.

"Why.. " He sad anger rolled off of him. I shook my head and laughed.

"No not like that he left me in the water. Im kinda... Ummm" I felt weird telling Zane one of my weaknesses. I looked away and sighed. "I'm afraid of the water."

Zane didn't look surprised he just nodded and looked to the bonfire. Girls were up on rocks dancing to the music. The guys whistled and some were wrestling on the ground.

"How come your afraid." He said no trace of amusement left his voice. I was thankful of that.

"I was a small girl. They never cared about me..." My thoughts drifted to the past.

"Mommy look!" When I was younger I tried desperately to get my parents attention. They were always focused on my sister, Carrie. She was the special one.

I stood at the edge of the cliff. Below the water splashed hard onto the jagged rocks. I wasn't scared. I was determined to show my parents that I was a good child too. I started dancing and kicking my legs everywhere. I wanted to show them... Show them I'm not afraid.

I guess I got to carried away that I stepped on a huge rock that was jagged. It scraped my foot. Cutting it badly. I screamed and fell. As I curled back to see my foot I never noticed I was on the edge. As I slipped back I grabbed onto a rock but the water made it too slippery. I felt myself falling. My parents didn't even turn from there precious Carrie.

As I fell I screamed and screamed... No one even cared. I remember my body hitting the water. At the age of 7 I didn't have yet the ability to heal properly. I was still a little girl...

I remember my body slamming into rocks as the waves hit me repeatedly. Water gushing into my mouth and nose. At that moment I only realized one thing.. I was gonna die without no one caring. I haven't had a mate,  a friend, a caring father and mother. Let alone a friend.

It felt like if it was all in a movie. I couldn't believe it was happening to me. I felt wave after wave after wave, forcing me down and hitting those rocks. Over and over and over again.

The more I hit them the more I felt I was slipping. Next thing I know I was on the sand. On the beach. My parents gone. I couldn't move, couldn't get up. I couldn't do anything. i was broken. Mentally and physically hurt,  exhausting and more than less mad at myself.

I couldn't believe my own jealousy made me go over the brink of death. As I laid there thinking all this in my head, time passed. I was out there around what probably 5 hours?

Nobody came to check if I was okay. I kept blanking out. Falling into unconsciousness over and over.

Our beta, Chris soon found me. I don't know exactly how he managed to find me since my parents loved to go to a secluded place. But he did. He carried me back to the pack house.

After the next few months I was regaining my ability to move. The whole time i sat there they called me useless and dumb. Everyday Cassie came and slapped me. Getting the opportunity to hit me in a weakened state. I couldn't do anything. Say anything. My lips felt glued shut. And with half of my bones in my body broken I couldn't fight back. I just let it happen. Sobbing and crying but didn't make it stop.

When I recovered I changed. I never talked to my family again. Never acknowledged them never said anything.

Slowly by slowly as I grew I started being a rebel. Our alpha was a strict person. Always yelled and slashed us with a whip. He pushed to far with me. I yelled back and slowly by slowly he got tired of me. He banned me. Banned me from my only home. If it's even considered home...

I was sobbing by the time i finished. I looked out into the distance. I noticed Zane kept quiet throughout the whole story. He stared up to the sky.

"I've heard many stories, but I got to say that was a blow, ash." He said letting out his breathe. "Don't know why you stayed but I'm glad your here."

"Yeah.. " I said hesitantly.

He got up and wiped off the sand off of his shorts. He leaned over and kissed me on the temple. I froze and shivered. Tiny electricity shot down my body. "Go enjoy the party."

With that he walked away leaving me in daze. I gingerly got up and turned to go to the pack house. With a sigh I turned away from everyone and stepped into the forest.

Thinking why I just told the alpha my deepest regret and humiliation like it was nothing important to me.