It's been 7 months since we started filming. It's starting to get blisteringly hot out. "Hey guys since we are getting so far with filming how about we take a beach day?" John said. The room erupted in cheers. "Thank you Jesus!" I exclaimed. "Nope it just me John." John said. "So head it home and grab your suits food umbrellas chairs towels whatever you need." John said. "Let's go I need to cool off right now." I said to my parents. We got home and I made a fruit salad and grabbed water and chips and stuff to bring to the beach. I texted the group that I made food. "I'll bring the chairs." Millicent texted. "I'll bring more beverages." Noah said. I sighed and went up to my room to get changed. You wore this or whatever you want
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"Y/n you ready?" My mom asked. "Yeah I'm coming!" I yelled. When we got to the beach I saw Millicent setting up the chairs and umbrellas. "Hey y/n!" She signed. "Hi!" I signed back to her bringing her in for a hug. "You ready to go swimming?" She signed. "Yes I'm so hot." I signed back. "Yeah me too let's wait for Noah though." She signed. "Yeah we should." Just then Noah and his family appeared. I started waving my arms around to get there attention. Noah nodded his head in my direction and they came over. "Hey y/n." Noah said. "Hey you ready to get in the water we are boiling." I said/signed. "Yeah let's go." Noah said. So together hand in hand we all ran into the ocean. The cold salty water rushed over us getting rid of the heat taking over us before. I got to the surface of the water. "Oh my god that felt good!" I signed/said. "Yeah no kidding." Millicent signed. We swam for a hour before our parents called us in. "Guys lunch!" They yelled. "Let's go." I said. I sat on a chair in the middle of Noah and Millicent. I was munching on some watermelon from the fruit salad I made when Noah passed me a blue juice in a barrel. "What's this?" I asked. Don't call me stupid but my parents don't allow me to drink or eat unhealthy so I didn't know what that was. For example a treat for me was pink lemonade. Noah started laughing. "What?" I asked. "Its a barrel juice." He said still laughing. "Y/n you can't have that." My mom said. "But mom I want to try it." I said. "That's sugar water y/n it's not good for you." My mom said warningly. "Come on y/mn let her try it let her be a kid." John said. "Yeah it won't do much harm it's one juice please." I begged. "Just this once y/n." She said. I took the juice from Noah. "Here you take the straw and you stab into here." Noah said right next to my ear. I sipped the juice. It was so good the sweetest thing I've had in my entire life. My fave must have changed. "Do you like it y/n?" John asked laughing. "Yes it's so good." I said drinking more. Noah was laughing drinking his own juice. "What's so funny jupe?." I asked him. "Oh nothing your face when you drank it." He said laughing more. "Oh whatever." I said nudging him. I was soon done with the juice and went to get another one. "Y/n I said one." My mom said. "Mom please just for one day can I just have unhealthy food and be a regular kid." I pleaded. "Y/n I said no please just sit and eat and drink your water." She said firmly. I sighed in defeat. I walked back over to my chair and sank down. "You can have one more." My dad said handing me another juice. "Just don't tell your mother." He said winking. "Thank you." I said quietly. After lunch we went back into the water and played for a few hours. "Guys time to get out of the water." My mom called. All of the kids walked out over to the parents sopping wet with pruney fingers and toes and sat on the towels to dry off the sun was now setting I tied a sarong in my waist and threw my hair back and walked over to the big rocks. I climbed up and sat down. I didn't know that Noah followed me. "Hey." He said. "Hey." I said. "May I sit?" He asked gesturing to the rock. "Yeah of course." I said. Before he came over I was thinking a lot. "You ok?" Noah asked nudging me. "Yeah I'm fine." I lied. I wasn't like depressed but I wasn't happy in that moment I don't know what happened. I was happy with filming and the people I was with and life it's just that again I'm missing home. It's been 7 months no contact from laureate or any of my other friends and nothing from Amanda. "Are you sure?" He asked again. I was snapped back to reality. "Yeah I am." I said putting on a fake smile. "You wanna know the truth?" I asked him. "Yeah I do." He said. "I have been thinking a lot." I said. "About what?" He asked. "My life I know it's sounds selfish." I said. "Well wha else are you supposed to think about?" He said. "So seriously y/n are you ok? You can tell me." He said looking me in the eyes. "At the moment no." I said giving him a sad smile. "So what's wrong?" He asked. "I love this and I love filming but there's another thing that I've been hanging onto at home not just my friends." I said tears welling in my eyes. "Hey hey it's ok." He said. "It's Danny." I said crying. "He's buried back home." I said tears falling down my face. "He wanted me to do this no matter what he wanted me to move on and forget him but I can't." I said. "I was there Noah when he died I was holding him when he died and I will never forget feeling the life leave his body the life leaving his eyes." I said sobbing. "This beach it was on a postcard he sent me right here this is it." I said still crying. "He sent me this when it got really bad and my mom and him had to fly to a hospital out of state." I said. "And my parents whenever I bring him up they don't want to talk about it they think that not talking about it makes the pain go away but it doesn't." I said. "They weren't the ones holding his hand." I said sobbing. I felt Noah's arms wrap around my shoulder and I cried into his chest. "Y/n I'm so sorry that happened to you I know sorry doesn't help but I truly am I could never go through what you have went through." He said. "Thank you Noah." I said. "Just don't mention this to anyone." I said wiping my tears off with the back of my hand. " I won't." He said smiling at me. I stood up and took a picture of the spot. I then got one with me and Noah. "Also I didn't know your parents were such health nuts." He said. "Yeah they are that's there way of keeping me controlled." I said laughing. Today was good I got some things off my chest and had my first barrel juice.
A/n like I said I'm using this book to shine light on difficult topics like Danny dying of brain cancer my would be uncle died when he was young because of brain cancer.
