Holding On To A Promise

Chapter Eleven

She felt herself molding into his arms, feeling as she had so many months before. She needed him more right now than she ever had, her heart was open and it called to him. The look in her eyes made him hopeful, he has seen that look before, the night she came to him to tell him that she loved him. Was she ready to accept him again, ready to let him love her again, that was all he wanted. The sound their hearts beating was deafening, they both knew what was happening. They were being pulled into that vast whirlpool of emotions, each of them surrendering to the other. She smiled a slight smile, as she looked into his eyes, " Can, I'm not sure if this is going slowly or not, maybe we should call it a night for now."  Her voice barely a whisper. It made him weak with just the sound of it, he answered, " I don't know if I can, I don't think I can let you go. My heart is so full of love for you it can hardly beat." The thought of it making his head swim. 

As if it was a perfectly choreography move, Sanem's phone rang. She glanced at her phone, "Can, it's Metin, he is facetiming me, I really need to take it." Can nodded, releasing his hold on her as she reached for her phone. " Hello Metin, is everything ok." She asked as she tapped on face time..Metin smiled, " Hi, hope I'm not intruding on you dinner, but I figured you would be through eating by now. I just needed to go over a file quickly with you." He explained, holding up a thick manilla folder.  Sanem glanced at Can and mouthed sorry to him. He winked at her letting her know he was fine. Metin continued, " There seems to be a document missing, it's the one that we had Mr. Tekin sign the last time he was in the office. I will need it for tomorrow's meeting." Sanem sighed, " Metin, it's there, look in the back, it's clipped together with his son's Power of Attorney form." She replied, a little agitated at the interruption. Metin laughed, " Well of course, here it is. I knew you would know where it was."  He squinted his eyes, " Where are you, are you outside?" He quizzed, tilting his head from side to side to see better.  Can quickly stepped up behind Sanem, putting his hands on her shoulders, " Yes we are Metin, we were enjoying the stars." He smiled, giving him a wave. Can felt like this was no accident that Metin called, he knew they were having dinner together. So what we he up to...

Metin laughed and returned the wave, " Can, good to see you, so you are at Can's house. Sorry to take you away from your evening. But this was business you know..Can, sorry brother, let's get together soon." Metin suggested, giving him a slight nod. Metin turned his conversation back to Sanem, " If you don't mind, could you come in a little early in the morning, I have that meeting first thing and I want to be sure there's fresh coffee and maybe you could even stop for some danish on your way. And I will need you to sit in on the meeting as well, you know how much I value you." He announced. 

Sanem felt uncomfortable, Metin had never acted this way before, he had never called her at home asking her to come in early, but she agreed just to be able to end the call. She felt Can still standing there behind her, his body pressed against hers, " So you need to go in early, that means an early ending to our dinner. Is that something that happens often" He asked, not wanting to seem jealous, but every inch of his body was erupting with it. The close proximity of him had here mind all jumbled, her heart was beating fast as she tried to answer. "Not usually, but...i guess this meeting is important." She stammered, trying to get the words out. He leaned down kissing her on the neck, " So, do you need to leave right away, or....Sanem quickly turned facing Can, " I think maybe we should call it a night, it is getting late, and.....Can places his finger on her lips, " Please, you don't have to explain, I know, you want to take it slow. But don't act as if we are just a casual couple. And don't use your job as an excuse to leave." He whispered, his lips close enough she could feel the brush of his beard as he spoke.  She closed her eyes, trying to regain her thoughts, " No Can, I don't at all think we are a casual couple, I know we are working to get back to where we were, but let's not do it all in one night." Her eyes pleading with him.

He took a deep breath and moved back from her, " Ok, but let's make plans for lunch tomorrow, and maybe tomorrow evening I can pick you up and we can go to the cabin. No distractions this time, we can just relax under the stars." He asked, running his hand along the bare skin of her arms. Sanem knew that going slow would be quite a challenge for both of them, but she was determined to make this work and to make it work they had to get past what had been their obstacles before, which was trust.  Sanem agreed to lunch and to the trip to the cabin for the next evening. " Ok, lunch it is, but I will only have an hour so we will have to go somewhere close." She explained, hoping that Metin wouldn't have something else for her to do. Can smiled, knowing he would have to plan something special for tomorrow night, maybe a little music, some beautiful decorations, he might even drag out his telescope again and they could look at the stars, just like before. That time when they were their happiest, their love was strong and new. 

Sanem always loved the cabin, it was her favorite place in fact. All the best times were there, until Polen came and offered him that job. The night he found out that she had given her fragrance to Fabri, that was the last night she had been there at the cabin. And that was a time she didn't want to remember. She was deep in thought as he drove her home, reliving that night and all the words he said to her. It made her heart ache just as much now as it did then, seeing Polen there, seeing that look of accomplishment beaming from her eyes, and that smirk of being superior to her. These were the things that she had to overcome before she was able to accept Can back into her heart and her life...

Can glanced her way, seeing her face drawn with tension, " Sanem what's wrong, you are thinking about something, what is it? He asked reaching for her hand.

She looked his way and he could see the tears that glazed her eyes. 

"I'm not sure if I can go to the cabin, the memories are still so vibrant in my mind of that last night I was there..All the things you said.."  She uttered, her throat so dry the words almost stuck there. "How will we get past them....how will I forget"....

Can pulled the car to a stop, "We just will, I'm sorry for everything I said. I wished everyday that I had never said them. My heart was hurt, and I let it take over, when I should have let our love take over. I promise you, that I will spend the rest of my life showing you that those words where just that....words, words without meaning. 

How she wanted to believe him.....her heart was begging for it.