Holding On To A Promise

Chapter Fifteen

These images were straight from a fairy tale book, from the magical recounts that she used to read about when she was younger. She smiled, twirling around with her arms spread out wide, "Can this is perfect, how did you do all of this." She asked. He moved closer to her, and scooped her up in his arms as she twirled around, almost falling. She threw her head back and laughed that laugh that was so uniquely hers, then she fell so perfectly into his arms, melting like hot butter against his chest. She was slightly dizzy so she laid her head on his shoulder, "I remember this Can, do you. Only I was dizzy from wine and the excitement of being alone with you for the first time." She revealed, snuggling in close to his body. Yes, he remembered, he would never forget that night. 

He steadied her, " Sanem are you ok." He asked, stroking her hair with his hand. She look up at him, " I couldn't be better, everything is just beautiful."  He smiled at her, " Come on let's sit, I have some delicious food for us. My friend brought it, I hope you like it." She took a long breath, drawing in the aroma, " It smells heavenly, and I'm starving. Metin ordered us pizza for lunch, but I was so busy I didn't really eat much." She explained, as he dished up the food. He watched her as they ate, listening as she explained the day, " You know Metin had never offered to help me before, I was quite shocked when he did. But at least we got it done. I'm sorry I had to cancel our lunch date." Her eyes soft and welcoming as she looked across the small table at him. Can knew that Metin had other motives for his actions, and he also knew that Sanem was completely blind to the fact. Their connection was undeniable, it was a look of coming home. He felt like he was right were he was suppose to be, his life was full, as full as his heart with love. His gaze made her tingle, as she felt the goosebumps rise to the top. All of a sudden this felt right, just like it should be. 

He reached across the table for her hand, " Come on let's dance, let's not waste this music." He spoke. She smiled, Can Divit wanted to dance, that was quite out of the ordinary she thought, but yet again this man always seemed to amaze her. She stood, making sure her feet were under her before she stepped toward him. Sometimes her leg just didn't move like it should, so she was always careful. The slow movement of his body, and the warmth that penetrated from it,  had made her feel as if she was drunk or impaired in some way. But she wasn't about to let go, her heart had taken up residency in this place. She felt his hands slid down her back and caress her body, he lowered his face to the little spot on her neck that he had always loved, the spot that reaked of her scent. His beard grazed across the outline of her breasts, all the way across to the other side, making her body shiver. Then he leaned in close to her ear, " Sanem, I love you more than ever, lets not deny our feelings." He whispered ever so slightly in her ear. 

Sanem heard her inner voice, " Ok girl, now what are you going to do, this is not what you call going slowly." She jerked around, looking for the person that had spoke. Can stopped, " What, are you ok, what's wrong." He asked, holding on to her as she tried to move away. She swallowed hard, " Did you hear something I heard a voice." She replied. She hadn't heard from her inner voice in months, why was it showing up now she wondered. She looked around, still feeling like she was being watched, when she heard it again, " Don't string him along, make a decision and go for it." The voice said. She laughed slightly, realizing  the voice must have returned when Can came back. If she recalled, her inner voice had always given her advice when it came to Can, most of the time she listened, but this time she was more confused than ever. 

She relaxed, but was a little more aware of what she was doing, as he wasn't ready to relinquish his hold on her just yet, they continued on. Can was waiting for a reply from his confession, "Sanem, don't you have anything to say, you know I love you. I want you to tell me how you feel." He pleaded. She recalled what her inner voice had said, make a decision and go for it, so that's just what she was going to do. If she said the words that were in her heart out loud then there was no turning back, no way out, just this feeling of overwhelming happiness that was coursing through her body right now. If this wasn't love for this man then she didn't know what was. She had always done things on a whim, thrown caution to the wind, been spontaneous, but with Can she had put up a guard. So maybe it was time to stop and just love him. Life is short, she discovered that when she had her accident, how things can be over in an instant, and you have nothing to say about it. A calmness swept done through her body, this was were she was suppose to be, in the arms of this man. This was truly the only place she had ever been happy or content.

She spoke quietly, as she looked into his eyes. " My feelings, you want to know my feelings. What I feel you has never changed, never wavered, has always been maintained within my heart. Even when you pushed me away, I remained, my soul refused to leave even when my heart was bruised. I don't love lightly, but love completely, so if you are asking if my feelings for you have changed or weakened, my answer is "no."  All that kept me going for those months of pain and rebuilding was that I knew one day you would be back, in my heart I knew. I have no other choice in my life than to love you, that is simply the way it is.....and at this moment I have surrendered to it....

He had never been a man to show his emotion, but he felt the tears burning hot in his eyes as she spoke. She had captured his soul, the were not many things in his life that he was sure of, but his love for her was one of them. Since the first day he saw her, the first time he touched her, this life was changed. He was truly a better man because of her, but mostly for what she had taught him, .....that he was worthy.

He smiled at her, " So we are back, is that what your saying. We can tell everyone how we feel."

Sanem hung her head shyly, " Well I don't think we need to make a international announcement, but letting everyone know we are back together wouldn't hurt."  She draped her arms around his neck, " Can, understanding  and listening have to be our priority, do you agree." She asked. 

" Yes, I understand and I'm listening, and I heard you say " I love you" loud and clear.......