Holding On To A Promise

Chapter Twenty One

Their visit to the agency had made her so happy. Just reconnecting with those people that had meant so much to her had made her day. CeyCey was the most happy of all, especially when Can  revealed that were together again, he had wanted that for his friends and knew that one day it would happen. Before all of the problems, Deren had find a place in her heart for Sanem, she had opened up and accepted the fact that Can and Sanem were meant to be. But her dream of being the woman in Cans life had never completely disappeared from her mind. So the news that had reconciled left a bad taste in her mouth, but she smiled and congratulated them both. The only hope she had of satisfying her desire for this man was if he were to return to Fikri Harika, at least she would be able to see him, and who knows, things may not work out with Sanem, they had a rocky relationship to say the least. So he was worth the wait.....

The visit was nice, and being able to tell someone they were back together again had lightened their hearts, making it feel real. By the time they made it back to Sanems office, half the afternoon was gone. Can made sure she made it to her office safe and sound, no more weakness of her legs, and he wanted to see if Metin was there. They needed to talk, but not when Sanem was around. This was going to be a serious talk, and one that may not be so pretty. " So Metin isn't here." Can asked, looking around the door into his office. Sanem shook her head, " No, he had a court appearance at 2:00, so he won't be back until later, why?"  Can smiled, "Just thought we could have that talk, you know to start smoothing things over with him." He replied, but knowing that probably wasn't going to happen. Sanem took his hand, " Thank you, I want you to really try, ok. You two were such close friends, I hate to see you like this." She spoke, her heart full of hope for the two of them. 

Can pulled her close against his body, " If that's what you want my love, then that's what I will do. I will try my best to let go of the past, ok." He whispered as he nestled his face in her neck, drawing in the beautiful aroma. She tried to wiggle from his arms, giggling, " Can we are going to get caught again." But he held her tight. He showered her with kisses, until he felt her body relax and surrender to him. She took a deep breath, " Can, you make me crazy, why do you do these things." She asked, her voice wispy and low. Can raised his head to look into her eyes, " Because I love you, I can't stand to be without you, I want to touch you, feel you. Does that make you crazy?" He uttered, his face so close to hers she could almost feel his lips. She held his gaze, letting it make that warm and giddy feeling run through her body. " Yes, that makes me crazy, you make me crazy. You make me feel different, like I was never alive before, just now." She spoke, embarrassed at her confessions but she couldn't seem to stop the words from coming. This man altered her judgement, made her mind dream of things that drove her insane, but never had she felt so much like a woman than when she was with him.

The kiss that followed was one of pure desire, a heated exchange of emotions that neither of them had expected. Can broke that kiss after several mind blowing seconds, breathing heavy and feeling quite unsure of himself. " Sanem, I don't know how much longer I can wait, I need you more every minute of the day. Let's tell your parents together and set a wedding date." She smiled feeling that same feeling, " I will tell them soon Can, then we will make our plans. He knew better than to argue with her, if she had her mind set on one thing than that was usually what happened. He closed his eyes, imagining what it would be like to have her all to himself, be able to show her in every way how he felt about her. 

She gave him a quick kiss in the lips, avoiding another one of those fire erupting kisses. They may not be able to recover from another, she thought, as she rested her head against his chest. She could feel his heart beating, it was pounding hard as he held her tightly against his body. She stepped back, " Can, you better go before someone walks in on us, I don't want to be embarrassed again." He nodded, hating to release that hold on her. "Ok, but it's not at all what I want to do, just so you know. And I will pick you up at 5:00." Sanem agreed, " I'll be ready, but I will need to go home tonight, so I can talk to my parents, the sooner the better. I don't want to make the same mistake as last time. I want them to know how we feel." She explained. 

Can felt like a weight had been lifted from his heart, as he made his way to his truck. Just to know she would talk to her parents tonight, that she didn't want to wait, he was happy and wanted to feel this way the rest of his life. Now he knew he had to talk to Metin, he was sure that Metins feeling for Sanem had gone beyond friendship and being her boss, so the quicker he found out they were back together in every way, the better. If he could salvage any of the friendship that was once there he would, but he wasn't sure if Metin felt the same way.

Sanem got busy, taking care of the last of the client correspondence for the day. She only had a couple of hours to finish up before Can would be back. She thought back to their lunch in the park, smiling, he always made things bigger and better. Even a simple lunch in the park was heavenly when she was with him. Her stomach fluttered with excitement as she recalled the way he begged her to marry him. Would this all finally happen for them, she loved him more than anything, she hoped her parents would understand and be happy for them. If not, she would have the hardest decision of her life. 

But just like that, she remembered her near fall and how her back and leg gave way. It made her cringe, it reminded her that she had problems, problems that may be more than Can was willing to accept. Her injures may be permanent, but then again they might not be. But was he willing to take her with all her flaws now...she felt the tears form in her eyes, stinging them as she fought to keep them from rolling down her face. Maybe he didn't realize her handicap, would it make a difference if she never regained the full use of her leg? She wondered. 

Maybe she didn't deserve him....maybe the accident was to prove that to her...

Her heart felt heavy, .....He deserved a whole person, not a person with problems.....

She closed her eyes, there she was always doubting herself, she thought.  But she prayed that she was wrong.........